I understand you, I suffer a lot of stress when I start something new in my life, I remember to when I began to work I repeated a phrase in my head , sorry I don't known the correct translation, in spanish is " si se ha de hacer se hace y punto". leave behind your emotions.Think about your ultimate goal, think that you will feel bad about it for a while at first but gradually acquired with the passing of time the experience you need and what is most important security in yourself.
About family well, some here,I am the youngest of 5 siblings, and I have no relationship either with my three brothers and my sister, it's my fault I Known,but I can not change who I am.when we met in the Christmas meal, I sit at the table like a fool and I am unable to say anything while they talk to each other as best friends, I just want to make the time go faster and run from there, it's my family and supposedly should feel good with them, but it is not.if you learn how to do it, please, let me know.