14 Sep 2016, 12:56 am
Summer Atrophy..this is sort of a topic I have coined myself, for what I experience in the summer or have at times.
It is a bad thing really. But often during high and middle school I would find myself without a whole ton of social opprotunities and so I would "atrophy." With the lack of strong social connections, or really sports like most NT boys I found myself withdrawing to myself, to the internet and video games. It really was the worst thing I could have done.
Not only did it somewhat ret*d my academic skills,but it made me feel miserable and empty, and made me think pretty wierd and intrusive thoughts which somewhat carried over into my school year.
Its no mystery why I did it. I was lonely and sought distractions. Instead though I should have done more constructive things, and tried to cultivate the few true friendships I had.
Further I should have tried to hone the whole "Special skill" subset that is often the only "saving grace" of autism. In my case, it was a strong area of strength in English and history. Well theoretically English. I enjoyed reading (depending on the book) but essay writing wasn't the greatest, and as such, wasn't able to continue in my Advanced English class for my senior year. Not that I cared at the time. 
I might be feelign sorry for myself. My life is great now. But I just wish I had dealth with this problem of mine a bit better.
