I don't really have any friends.

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Let me start off by saying that, while I don't really mind keeping to myself, it's a bit depressing when I come to think of it - just being by myself without anyone to really talk to

I do have a girlfriend, and she has friends, but she has moved up about an hour away from them, to live with me. She's been here for over a year, but that's a different story.

Anyways, back to the topic. I was always very shy in middle/high school, and it doesn't really help that I was in with the "loser crowd." That meant, for me, everyone who wasn't extremely quiet didn't really talk to me very much, I was always the one to talk to them. Sure they were friendly enough, but I was never really approached by them initiating. And for the other people that were like me (quiet, kept to themselves) did just that - stayed to themselves, going about their day.

I never really did change going into college very much. Again, just being mostly quiet and keeping to myself, talking to a couple classmates right after the class was over but not really anything else. I've been out of college for a while, not because I got my degree but because I kept doing poorly, so I just stopped. That was a few years ago now. I want to go back, but I just don't really have the motivation.

At 23 years old, I don't really have much of an opportunity to go out and make friends anywhere, especially since I work a night shift job. My days of high school, where friends are made, are long over. I regret not trying harder to make friends, because I'm sure that I could have if I actually attempted to. My girlfriend grows tired of it just being us here, and I understand her point of view, I really do. We were out last night at a bar, and she mentioned that, while she was having fun with me, it'd be much better with a couple friends instead of just us. Cue the internal depression, yet again.

Now, I know that I could easily go on forums and say something like "I don't have any friends, can someone be my friend," and I'll get several good responses, but in my mind, those aren't really "friends," they're just people through the internet being nice to a lonely person. I know I could go to the library (or some other social gathering place), join a group there, and make friends with them, but again - I feel like they aren't really my true friends, just people I've met and can relate to, in a way.

I'm not entirely sure what the point of this post is - I'm looking for agreeance, if nothing else I suppose. AS has been the downfall of my social life, and it's just recently started to hit me hard. What do you guys think?

A big part of the problem is you work night shifts. I have that problem as well. I work till ten at night and come home to drink. I have noticed that most "social events" cater to people who get work "bankers' hours" Also it's the butt kissers at work who get to work the good hours. All you can do is keep trying and really think before you speak.

At least you have a girlfriend!

I can relate in many ways, sir except I have been spending my last year of high school putting maximum effort into creating a social life.

While I have found some success, I am still not satisfied. I have made many 'at-school' friends and acquaintances, but no 'true' friends. My goal is to make friends with people to hang out with outside of school/work/whatever, but my friends aren't those kind of people and I don't have that.

I use to hang out with my best friend and my other 2 friends when I lived in the same city as them, but now we all live in different places. We still keep in contact online and meet-up in real-life sometimes, but it's just not the same.

I also usually dislike/can't stand online friendships, online relationships, whatever. I prefer real, human interaction.

And the library thing you said is true for me as well. I can go somewhere (example: school), meet people and make some good friends and I like spending time with them, but as soon as I go home I am absolutely and totally lonely and miserable on weekends/holiday's. I have no friend in the same city as me that I can hang out with, no one to invite to my birthday, I can't just call someone up and say 'Hey, want to hang out/go to X/do X on the weekend.' I don't have that and I severely miss it.

You're not sure what the point of this post is? Well I'm not sure what to say in advice myself.

I guess even people who ARE trying VERY hard by being social and meeting new people can still relate - I've had minimal success and while I've met many nice acquaintances have very few 'real' friends.

I also had a girlfriend myself, but just yesterday she broke up with me for the second and last time. Yes, I DID get my girlfriend through my efforts - she was a member of a new group I was hanging out with and we had natural chemistry. But we only lasted 12 days the first time, and 5 the second - she fell 'out of love' with me both times. FFS.