Being a VERY open book

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I tend to hear you are not supposed to talk about something until you are 100% certain about it (in case it is not true or it changes). Keep it to yourself until you know more about the subject, basically. But I can't keep things to myself, I just say it. I cannot not say it. Even writing this post now. It is a behaviour that I cannot change. This is very embarrassing, I hope I am not the only one.

The past couple of days I read about aspergers and found an explanation for all my difficulties. I am not a complete oddball - it's not me, it's my brain! So I told my wife about this possibility, and after reading about it, she seems to finally understand some of my behaviours. I also told two friends: one, who I suspected would fully understand me but instead told me to talk to his aspie friend, and the other told me "everyone has some type of mental illness to a certain point". Eh.

I often put myself out there, even though I over and over again get unexpected negative responses. I get excited about things, especially when they are about me. I realised I was bi when I was around 15, and told people about it. I thought everyone felt the same, until I asked my [girl] friends if they would kiss a girl - their response was of disgust, so I figured not everyone was bi. Later I realised I was genderqueer - told people about it, just to get weird looks because [obviously] if you live in a binary world, non-binary is hard to understand.

I never seem to learn to keep these things to myself. Even though they are obvious and completely understandable for me, I can't expect everyone else to understand it too. But I never seem to remember that, so I keep putting myself out there in the most weird and awkward situations.

I'm pretty much an open book, too.

Been this way since I started speaking at age 5 1/2.

Home and a small men's group at church are my 2 safe open areas.

<--- Completely open book. Has no secrets. None, zero, zip. Ask him anything; just hope you can handle the answers.

I don't think it's necessarily a bad thing as long as you realise that no everyone will agree with or understand what you have to say.

That way you won't feel too hurt or rejected when you remember, "OK, this is how I feel, but not everyone feels this way. We are all unique."

The worst thing you could do would be to clam up completely for fear of being judged. Be yourself.

I get on better with people who are open and who tell me how they really feel and how they really see things.

I'm still discovering the awesome and arcane art of keeping my mouth shut.

Filtering and discerning who to share what is a juggling of my mind.

Most people who ask me how I'm doing, just get fine or another day in paradise. Several folks at work say the latter. Most days and moments I do like my job.

Others get the real version.
Realizing when their interest is done before my sharing is as useful with my friends as in group. Later evidenced by statements like "drlaugh" what are you talking about"
Even here at WP I do this.

This is a post that I would think was too long.

I'm the same. Sometimes it's a bonus other times it gets me in trouble... I can't easily change it so is m embracing if and working with it.

Sometimes I get a "subtle" cue from my wife. It is usually a gentle squeeze of my arm.