Reconnect with a childhoodpal or just move on?

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I only have my boyfriend in this stage of life and it´s beginning to feel a bit lonely. I do have two friends but they are living too far away.
Now I begin to think alot about an old lost friend and the possibilty to either reconnect or keep on avoiding her in the future.
I have difficulties from see who´s good and who´s bad and that´s why I post this because I need some advices.

I moved away from this childhood-friend when we where entering adulthood because she was turned into a egomaniac and even a bit of a bully to me.
Not a "real bully" but she often had snide comments when I had my own ideas.
I was too whimpy to be open about this issue that I just moved away from her for study. Our contact was then and there broken but it felt okey for me.
Sometimes she sent me a email and said she and her other (new) friends was going to my town and maybe I would like to meet them,
but I always declined. Why would I meet my old childhood-friend with a bunch of strangers? It was not feeling comfortable for me at all and I would
rather like a nice, long email from her so we could reconnect on a more personal level.

Now when I look at her FB-page she seem like she has a steady life, a fulltime-job, married, living in a house in the same old city that she always lived in.
I have no idea if she still is that egomaniac she was turned into, or maybe that was just faze that´s now are gone?

The things is, we do have a very long childhood-history together and these memories from when we were playing are just so special and sweet to me.
I wish that she was still that shy, kind little soul she was back then but she changed and so did I.
She began to change first and when I did she always said to me "this is not you" but I was just being older and a bit more like my real me.

Why I even post this thing is that I sometimes questioning if I one day decide to meet her again, is that a chance she is that egomaniac or
are there any chance that she is back to her childhood-spirit? (I don´t mean that I believe that a adult woman can be like a ten year old, but
I mean the more kinder self she was back then)

If she still is this selfcentered person I would nothing to do with her, but I don´t want to judge her based upon just old young adult-memories.
But I´m afraid that we are meeting each other one day and then I don´t know how to think, react or do. The world is small so one day we maybe meeting each other again and I would love to know how to react.

Please some advices, as I was saying before, we do have a long history together so it´s not just like some random childhood-pal.

From what you are telling me she sounds like someone who is quite insecure along with thinking that she is superior to others including you. While I do think it is okay to try and reach out, you need to remember to protect yourself first. This could be by setting boundaries with her,

Eg- if she makes snide remarks you could tell her "I would appreciate it if you didn't talk to me like that," or "I'm sorry that you can't ever be happy for me."

By the way I can relate to you about close friends seeming to accomplish things in their lives and suddenly get an ego or think they are superior to others.

One thing to remember is when some bullies are adults, they realize that what they did when they were younger was wrong and so they move on.

IMO, the best you can do is to ignore her until she tires of wanting to reconnect with you.

Thank you for answering this issue. If I meet her one day I will set boundaries and I also will wait until she reach out to me first. I also do think that I maybe look back in rose-colored glasses when I think about our childhood-memories.

I have a second question about another friend, but from adulthood. We were mostly party and dining-buddies, but we shared alot feelings as well. I really liked this friend but I was the only one who contacted her in the first place. Her respond was that she simply was bad to keep contact with people (but she had better contact with other friends at this time). I started to feel leftout and stopped contact her. She then got pregnant and we drifted apart naturally. But I often told her that I could go with her to childfriendly places so she would feel like I still cared, but she never contacted me qbout it. Now its been like 3 years and I havent reach out to her, she not to me. Just forget about this one or what should I do?

Maybe someone have a personal experience with these kind of ppl?

Like with the first friend just reach out by allowing the ball to be in her court. If she doesn't get back with you leave her alone. If she does and then gives you the same brush off excuse, "It seems to me that you have no problem getting in touch with your other friends. So that is not going to fly with me. Are you interested in me or not?"

If she gives you more excuses "I'm sorry that you can't tell me the truth and maybe it's not a good idea for us to stay in touch after all."

I have had to do that on a few occasions with people and it works believe me.

Thank you for your response.

I would love to be that open but you can never get away that it sound a bit "needy" too. I would not want a "busy" pal that thinksIm too much

Does this person ever correspond with you otherwise by email or phone? Or do they just want to hook up when they happen to be in town and their friends are with them?

I'd be concerned about showing up to meet them at a busy restaurant and winding up listening them chat without really being a part of the conversation.