Hey, all of you rather «isolated» people, let's be friends !

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Alright. I realise that many of us live rather isolated livelihoods. Some handle it better than others.
I know that we exist and are here and there but, for whatever reason, our interactions are rather minimal.

I will just «introduce» myself, describe some «inspiration» for creating this thread, then offer some joint-activities.

Introduction: I shall refer to myself as the name «Samson» for now (this is not the Legal-Name that I use but I do recognise and respond to this name that I started using a few months ago). Several years ago, I used to attend a Community College (this was at one of the suburb-cities of Washington-state around the Puget-Sound region), and my primary interest was that of Foreign-Languages (I attended language-classes for multiple different languages and even managed to score Straight-A's for more than one semester for all of the languages that I had signed up for).

Inspiration - A Friend I Once Met: I had met another student there during a Japanese-Culture-Club (his name was Alex), one where many of the Japanese-Language-Students and Japan-Natives would meet each week, and usually we'd watch some of an Animé-Movie and/or continue its progress from the week before (followed by answering cultural-questions in order to use as evidence that club-activities were legitimate for academic-purposes). His (the Alex that I had met) purpose for attending was to make friends, for he did not seem to have any, and I became his friend (for I also did not associate with friends; I was basically living in a homeless manner at the time, although I now Domicile at my own apartment-unit upon the lands of the mid-West of South-Western South Dakota to be specific, but I wish to move to Kansas for various reasons). I was basically his best friend (and only friend) and it was also in a way vice-versa with him.

Friendship - The Shared/Bonding Experiences: I met his family during Christmas of that year, for I had been invited to meet them, and I was treated well (feeling a like almost a family member of an actually «sane» family), and I later on learned that Alex was prescribed on Prozac ever since a young age. Alex and I did various activities together for a time, visiting the animé-club together, watching movies together, heading out to restaurants and eating together, and having various discussions about life, our experiences, etc. One day, how-ever, when the topic of psychotropic-drugs was discussed, Alex asked me about getting off his Prozac before I became as knowledge-able about the subject as I am now (you see, most people live in a world where they have never spent hundreds or even thousands of hours looking into the evidence that is offered by so-called Conspiracy Theorists, and I used to be amongst the «ignorant» who had no idea of the dangers of quitting any of these psychotropic-prescriptions cold-turkey).

Devastation - The Loss of a Very Good/Kind/Valuable Friend: I knew that these drugs were poisonous, but I did not know just how dangerous they were at the time, and trying to flush out the neuro-toxins out of one's system as «quickly» as possible was to have its dangerous consequences. Inadvertently, I was partly (perhaps even largely due to my ignorance at the time) responsible for my friend's demise, for his father had called me a couple of days later after the night of our discussion on quitting cold-turkey, informing me that Alex had committed suicide (from hanging himself). I now always double-check all information, especially when the «source» originates from anything main-stream, such as the «fake news» that comes out of CNN, for I had learned the hard way that ignorance is NOT «bliss» but the primary cause for ALL suffering.

Family Situation: Earlier, I made mention of the «sane» family of Alex, for I was living in the manner of an orphan at the time, due to an extreme fall-out that I had with my «legal-parents» of the time; I completely disassociated and disowned what were considered my legal-parents/guardians, stopped referring to my biological mother as mom, calling her only by her first name and cutting off ALL communication from them for a good seven years in a row (for reasons that were related to her manipulative-dishonesties that caused me to lose everything to the point where I was forced to eventually live in a homeless-manner without even a car). Although there have been a total of two «step-fathers» within my life, the mother has always been the same (the biological-one), and I had only ever briefly seen my so-called biological-father once in my life (when I was around 19 years of age). I would describe all sets of my parents as having been rather very dysfunctional and/or abusive in more than one way, thus my choice to disassociate from them, and I was actually happier living in the manner of an orphan, even if my life was very isolated from any form of social-interaction outside of dealing with employers or customers or work-colleagues. Now that all step-fathers have passed away (the last one being from four and a half years ago), that essentially leaves me and my mother, although we do have very caring in-laws who live over at Texas-state.

Current Situation: I only returned via flight to South Dakota from Washington-state a few years ago in order to assist with the hospice of my recent step-father, for he was a cancer-patient, and the only reason why my «parents» even had any of my contact-information was because of someone whom I used to associate with (one of those manipulative types who was full of hypocrisy and dishonesties but I had little choice at the time as to with whom to associate as I did not have anybody else's contact-information other than his at the time whose name is Ali). The flight was supposed to be a return-flight but, because of my mother's stubbornness, she forced me to miss my return-flight, and she did not even have the courtesy to inform the air-line, nor did she even allow me to make any attempt to inform the air-line of my situation (I should hyper-link to an article on abusive-parents for those who push the «honour thy father & mother» narrative). From that time, I was basically «living in mom's basement»™ from that time onward, then moved out into my own apartment-unit a few months ago. I have much more that needs to be mentioned but I shall hold off on that until another day.

Activities: Over the last few months, I have worked on a variety of activities, some of which includes learning more about web-coding (because I have a web-site that I still need to work on designing better), learning a lot about law and legalese (and I now have proof that the so-called government is a completely satanic-system), resuming the continued learning and study of languages, Russian to be more specific. Although I have a variety of skills and interests, when it comes to languages, I decided to focus lately more on Russian, for my Russian-grammar is not perfect, and I wish to focus on learning and improving my Russian-grammar. One of the things that I discovered that seems to be a good, interactive-reference, was found and discovered when I installed a few add-ons to my Chromodo-Browser (web-site translation-tools since I needed to pull up some Russian-language sources in order to be able to quote and use as evidence to support my claims when writing a letter to Vladimir Putin at the Kremlin).

I started a Russian-language learning course from one of those Add-Ons to the web-browser, pointing me to the DuoLingo web-site, took a placement-test, but didn't score high enough to be placed at any advanced or even intermediate-levels, thus it started me out as a complete beginner, however, I already knew enough Russian to be able to take a bunch of tests since yesterday night to the point of moving up from level 0 to currently at level 4 of Russian, but I believe that I can probably even reach at least level 17 or possibly even level 40 before another week has passed, depending on how much extra time I have for studying/learning/testing. DuoLingo covers a variety of languages and, towards the right of the page when I am logged into the site for my course, a box tells me that I am alone but has the title : «Compete with your friends» (I do not use Face-Book but it has a button for Find Friends on Facebook, including a Send Invite button where I can put in someone's e-mail, and there's a Search button that I haven't tried yet - perhaps a search for friends).

Anyway, the DuoLingo thing is one of many activities that we could do together (for people with any interest in learning foreign-languages), but another reason for creating such a thread-title is because I have noticed that there are quite a number of members of W-P who live their own lives in a rather isolated manner, and I wish to gather everyone into one thread where we can share our experiences. You are not alone in your isolations but, for whatever reason, each of us have had to face through different challenges that cause(d) our isolation from social-interaction. I feel that it might even be accurate for me to say that I just do not find much compatibility between myself and most typically social people (most of them seem to either have some kind of ulteriour-motive or unnecessarily always direct their illogical anger at you for no good reason or are just outright too dishonest for my preferences). I can probably relate to most of you isolated peaceful people here on W-P better than I would with most of those self-righteous types of the «main-stream / NT» societies. Anybody else around here ever also lived in the manner of being somewhat like an orphan ?

Hello,

It's very fitting that I have found your message. I have also struggled with social isolation and being different from my peers. I'll also give you a little history about myself.

Early Childhood: I was a very quirky fellow. I would either jump around a lot, talk to myself, or do both. I also struggled to make friends. The few friends I had I lost contact with. One day my mom took me to the psychiatrist and I was diagnosed with Asperger's.

My Middle School/High School Years: Being an Aspie only got worse as I got older. Without knowing, I would always make say or do things that were social no-nos. It was rather embarassing. I didn't have much people to talk to and at one point, I couldn't take it anymore and I ended up crying during recess in front of everyone. After that, they had to bring a psychologist to school to observe me. Let's just say I wasn't very proud of it. My self esteem was and is still very low and I was tried to act normal in front of my peers. However, there were times that social interactions would just blow up in my face. Even if I said "hi" to someone, it would just come off as creepy

Currently: I am in my third year of college now and I was recently diagnosed with depression. Not only am I in a demanding major, but I am under so much pressure with no one outside of my therapist to talk to about this. I frequently clashed with my parents over my college major and future plans and I even failed a couple of classes last semester. I also struggle a lot with organization and time management. However, now I am on Prozac and Adderall, and I can say my overall mood has improved. I personally didn't want to go on drugs at first, but I felt I had no choice. It's easier for me to get out of bed in the morning and face the challenges the day brings me.

Interests and Hobbies: Like you I also have a love of foreign languages. I am conversational in Spanish and am currently learning Spanish on Duolingo. I, too, had to start as a beginner, but at least I get to review. I am also in the middle of learning Japanese (though it's taking me forever to learn hiragana and katakana) and I would like to learn Korean someday. I like listening to Kpop, and watching Japanese Variety shows. One show I am currently watching is Otona no Kiss Eigo. I also like to draw/ paint and have been getting more into art lately to relieve my stress. Hope we can all be friends!

Greetings, FZ.

Spanish & College: Spanish is certainly a useful language to be able to communicate with in many parts of the USA. I have much more to say about my life but, due to the various changes and complications that I have experienced, that would likely fill up encyclopedia-volumes. Even though I have had Straight-A student-status before, I have also gone through some semesters of a former college/university where every class resulted in complete failures, for two entire semesters in a row (a lot of it had to do with the fact that both sets of parents that I had originally grown up with were irrationally abusive in many a way). The expectations were unreasonable and, ever since at least a decade and a half ago, I have since regarded college as more of an unnecessary indoctrination-institution rather than a system of true/genuine knowledge/learning (with very few exceptions and certain notable but rare professors).

Friends: From my experiences with friends, I find that a lot of it has to do with consistent follow-up, but most people usually do not make any effort to keep in contact with people outside of their immediate-family. I used to go about living life as something of an entrepreneur, had business-cards with me all the time, exchanged contact-information with literally at least a couple of thousand different people that I had met during my active-working days, but not a single one had ever contacted me and I did not contact any of them either. Certain types of people should be avoided though (such as those who show frequent signs of obvious dishonesty; I found that those types only really brought unnecessary problems into my life instead of being of any benefit to true and genuine life-progress).

School: The original step-father in my life worked in the oil-field industry with Esso, resulting in several company paid family relocations, and I had lived amongst several countries and attended many schools in different locations. I had various school-experiences, had a few «incidents» of my own in some of the schools that were not necessarily regarded as socially appropriate, but there was also a «popular» time that I had (performing random break-dance-like moves at some of the dances or school-plays resulting in my fame spreading throughout the entire school). Despite how famous and popular I was for a particular year or two in high-school, even when attending those dances that everybody told me about in order to watch my performances, not one girl ever asked me for a dance (well, actually, I think there may have been one, but I probably responded the she wouldn't be able to keep up with me, then she later on admitted that I was right, once everybody witnessed me doing multiple back hand-springs and gymnastics-style splits and floor-spinning moves with my performance). Now that I think about it, I guess in hind-sight, the girls all probably thought I was too good for them, for I did have a «huge ego» exterior when away from the house and at school, but part of it was to counter-act the severe trauma that I was forced to endure at so-called «home» (I will always be opposed to abusive-parenting as it is wrong and immoral and unethical).

Depression: I honestly find that this condition has much more to do with one's environment, such as the unreasonable demands of irrational or demanding parents, for I was actually much happier with my life when living on my own, away from the screaming and yelling of my parental-figures. Granted, I was living in a car that I had at that time, but I was also working full-time and my own job(s), consistently. Certainly, that was an isolated and isolating life-style, but all of my basic needs were covered, and I would have most-certainly made it quite big by now (perhaps even self-made millionaire-status) were it not for the combination of Police-State USA and parental-interference and the dishonest banking systems that steal money from our accounts (apparently had something to do with the Economic-Crash of 2008 which was when all of the money had been stolen from one of my bank-accounts from the very banking institution itself).

I have since then learned that everything within «society» has been «rigged» ever since a long time ago (the schools are rigged, the states are rigged, the governments are rigged, the court-systems are rigged, the news is rigged, the television-choices are rigged, the music-choices are rigged, all wars are rigged, the medical-industry is rigged, etc., and it all traces back to the usury of central banking systems that charge taxes and interest-rates to everyone's detriment). I believe that depression (and all diseases and all poverty and all social-problems) would become a thing of the past for everybody once the current «rigged systems» are gone and instead a «win-win-win system» has been implemented world-wide to help everybody (because the current systems are a rat-race style of «win-lose» Ponzi-Schemes where Peters are always being robbed to pay Paul instead of encouraging any kind of economic-productivity).

Languages: Although I do have basic conversational-skills in Spanish, I would say that mi español has gathered rust, although I will probably resume developing Spanish-comprehension in the future. Besides English, I have delved into Russian, French, Japanese, German, Spanish, Greek, Mandarin, I am aware of the three-part structure of the Korean-alphabet and I can usually recognise which languages that many alphabets or hieroglyphics belong to. I will tip you on how you can embed an entire alphabet of another language into your permanent-memory. I usually repeat segments of 4 at a time, one side being your native-language, the other side being the target-language, side-by-side down on a piece of paper or equivalent. For example, with Japanese Hiragana and Katakana, I might make a list that looks like the following...

A　あ　ア
I　い　イ
U　う　ウ
E　え　エ
O　お　オ

For this we have three columns. What I do is cover up two of the columns and try to be able to write down the transliteration from memory for the other two columns. Say that the 2nd and 3rd columns are covered, that would leave A I U E O visible, then once you can consistently and correctly write A I U E O 10x in a row from memory without needing to get any hints as to the answer, then you do the same with the next column, leaving only あいうえお visible, repeating what you just did when only AIUEO was visible, followed by doing the exact same with the last column, being able to convert アイウエオ from memory 10x in a row correctly into あいうえお。This is also exactly how I commit new vocabulary to memory (once your mind becomes used to the four-at-a-time pattern method-of-learning you can actually start to take bigger chunks like 12-at-a-time segments for alphabets/vocab-words). One of the earlier reasons I learned languages was to be able to conceal some of my writings from being able to be understood by my parents or other people whom I deemed as untrustworthy (thus my now-ability to read and write/type in the different alphabets of the Latin-languages, Russian-Cyrillic, Japanese Hiragana/Katakana/Kanji, Greek-alphabet, and I could probably also commit the entire alphabets of the Armenian and Hebrew and Aramaic and Korean and other such non-Latin languages to memory if I bothered to allocate enough time and attention for such purpose, and there was even a time when I created an entire universal-but-private transliteration-alphabet of my own since not all of the letters of any particular language was sufficient to cover all of the sounds that may exist in one language but not necessarily another).

Art-Work: I have also created various drawings and paintings throughout the earlier parts of my life, even to the point of winning several art-competitions/contests, and even being able to draw animé-style drawings/pictures at a professional-looking level if I allocated enough time to focusing on the drawing (provided that I had access to the 36-colour-variety Staedler Luna water-colour penciles or equivalent and had put in at least eight real-world hours into the drawing for all of its necessary finer details). Although I cannot promise to relieve any stress from you (well, actually, I probably could since I seem to actually have professional-level massage-skills that have always succeeded at relieving stress-and-tension), I can still certainly lend an ear, and we can continue to communicate as friends with our shared interests and experiences with those shared interests! ^_^

For now, I need to plan a schedule for myself into my appointment-book for the next week or two, due to many things in my life that must be done, and hopefully I can maximise the necessary productivity to get my needed results. See you here another day!

Kiss off. From all the BS that goes on here with a few beloved members, I no longer want nor need friends!

Hello

I have a somewhat strange pattern of coming and going from the site; saw the thread after making my usual contribution to the ghost games

Early Childhood: Honestly, a lot of my early years are a big blur to me. I have a hard time remembering anything from my childhood aside from being different, subtly bullied, and all other flavors of weird.

Middle/High School: The highest constant I had for the seven odd years of the two was concert band. Being a percussionist and OCD I naturally created, and then took, the job of organizing all equipment and music. I had the strange knack of picking up skills in high school: teaching myself chess and proceeding to inflict a fifty plus winning streak on my peers, writing a book in a month, and making an RPG game in my spare time.

Currently: I'm half way through my third year of college and have a vaguely high social life (by expected standards). Surprisingly I've never been medicated and cope rather well with the age old 'school of hard knocks' philosophy.

Interest&Hobbies: I've always been a big history nut and that shows in my writing, general lack of style, and very outdated means of speech. I have a rather large addiction to most strategy games since they are one of few things to give me a challenge. Nice to be talking to people here again

Greetings, Commander! And well met!

More Childhood: Oh, I remember being targeted, too. More so in middle-school and early high-school than the earlier school-years. I was told that I did not start speaking until I was four years of age. I do not necessarily remember much about my early child-hood years either, but I do remember something that left a strong impression, that was this one time when I stuck my finger into a lamp-socket that did not have its light-bulb. I got electrocuted.

Musical-Skills: I cannot claim much musical-talent but I am known to be able to give an entertaining dance-performance (similar to break-dancing). I am guessing you must be able to compose your own music-tracks ?

Learning: I certainly believe in learning from the school-of-hard-knocks. Self-education ability is important !

History & Strategy: You would most-certainly have come across «Winners write the history» statements by now ? I used to recite historic names/events by memory, not realising at the time that I was repeating what I learned or heard like it was some kind of mantra, without really putting to question the credibility of the source(s) from where I obtained the information (sometimes it can be like a religion if one becomes to rigid or dogmatic with insisting that any one particular narrative or another is factual). I used to play a variety of video-games, also finding that I tended to prefer the ones with higher levels of complexity (such as RPGs or MMORPGs), for usually I would be able to win at most of the other titles within a day or two (also used to do things thing at video-game arcades where I would try to win on only one credit without pumping in any more coins to need to continue). Managed to succeed at it on several titles, and could even do the same on a number of console-games, used to keep track of which game-titles I had conquered (a total of over 5000 different games throughout my life from home-consoles to video-arcades to computer-games), including how many times I beat each game-title (tallied). I work on other things now, still need to master web-page coding, such as in HTML5, CSS, how to code an entire «forum» of my own (hey, if I could do that, then maybe Alex could hire me or I could volunteer some of my time to implement features and stability and stuff into these forums!), possible Java-Script and other forms of C/C++ style software-engineering (although I still have a lot on my plate to absorb in regards to foreign international-languages and the gigantic field of Law/Legalese).

Always nice to be able to connect with others who have shared interests/experiences !
Let's continue to all add periodically into this thread as inspiration permits (insert thumbs-up icon here...) !