DON'T WANT TO SPEAK TO ANYONE?

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I'm having such a stressful time, i am in the middle of a huge depression and don't feel like seeing or talking to anyone. I've been off work for about 10 weeks now and have yet to tell my family this, i'm not very close to them. I've had so many problems in the past i think if i go to them with this one it will be a case of 'what's the problem now?' I'm feeling to fragile to take that right now, i don't see what the problem is with not always wanting contact but my family just think there's something abnormal about me as they are always so sociable. What the f*** is it with being sociable, am i the only one who thinks this overated most of the time? Sorry to unload all this but there isn't really anywhere else i can unload. Thanks everyone. xx

We've all been there (or at least many of us have). Let it all out. Talk to us if you do need someone to talk to.

Thanks hun, nice to hear a friendly voice.

I have mild depression at the moment. Sometimes I'm not too bad, other times things (and people) get to me. Like when pillocks start on me for no good reason. When I'm OK I can just bounce it back but everything becomes much, much tougher when you're depressed. It's like going back in time, if you will.

I get depressed big time sometimes, that all I want to do is lay in bed and day and night dream. I call it my own fantasy world, I have a great imagination that I would go to to escape reality. I went to bad depression one year that I dropped out of hs for like 6 months, and all I did was sleep, nothing else. Now when I get depressed I go lay down in my bed turn up my music and start daydreaming for maybe an hour or two, and usually I get really good daydreams and feel so much better about myself.

Daydreaming..... i could spend my entire life like that or though i'm not sure that's too healthy

Since I’ve never spoken; no one expects anything from me other than what they suggest and insinuate, which is all said in their “nice” voices; which still annoys me to no end.... But anyway, I suppose I have it easier than a lot of you Social Emulators and Social Walkers ‘cause when you give people something they expect the giving to keep on coming.

I don't give them anything.

I definitely know where Rosered is coming from. I have a hard time talking to people about how depressed I am. Oh sure I have tried but either nothing has come of it or some people (i.e. my boyfriend) think I am just going through the "same old stuff that will never change".

I haven't talked to anyone in my faily outside of my wife and daughter for over five months. I did try calling my mom and sisters on Mothers Day but all of them had changed their numbers. Not that we don't get along, mind you; it's not like we fight or something and so they changed their numbers to avoid me. I just don't call people to socilaize. I used to try calling them every two to three months to stay in touch, which was annoying since they would invariably each keep me on the phone for an hour at a time. But then I noticed that nobody ever called me so I figured maybe they didn't mind if I didn't call so often so I decided not to call around anymore unless there was a reason, such as a holiday. It's just kind of weird being completely out of touch, and not by choice although it does work out in my favor. I figure one of them will call eventually so I'll play catch-up then. I have to agree with Danielismyname; no bloody reason to play the "so good to talk to you!" crap since it just leads to more of it later.

As far as depression, I spend a good majority of my time annoyed, pissed, or depressed so I can't really tell if there is a relation to the contact infrequency. To be quite frank, I don't care if there is. You worry about being happy when you can in your own skin and let your family take care of themselves. If they have something to say then they can spit it out clearly instead of playing those stupid insinuation games that never make any damned sense. Stick to yakking with us clowns online, where we won't judge you for who we think you should be; we'll just judge you for who you are.

Most of the time all I want to do is sleep all day. When a friend calls, of whom I haven't heard from a long time, it takes me so long to get back to them. When in the car I don't like to talk, I don't want to talk to my coworkers. Most of the time all I want to do is sleep. Sometimes I want to just be a hermit out in the desert with a pet duck and just disappear.

I'm the same way when I'm depressed, don't want to talk to or even look at anybody.
I find that it helps to write down how I feel, that way I can get it out of my head without having to spill my guts to another person.