loosing my interest in life, getting closer to the end

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Hello,
I am saying time and again though I feel I am getting closer to a serious issue. Recently I left home for the first time (I am 38), I live in London with a couple. The woman is nice and the man not so much. I am working at the moment on a zero hour contract. I have been told that I will not get a pay rise and at the end of my "training year" I will have to leave. The manager is making it clear that he does not want me there. I find it very difficult to get on with others, always have. This job relies on me getting on with others. I am struggling to get on with the landladies husband. He is a sort of macho type. I think that I am going to have to walk away from my job here. I have no one to talk too. My mum is not very pleasant and says rather mean things to me. There is nothing I feel interest in anymore. I am slowly getting rid of my possessions. I find that I worry a lot about the possibility of being homeless as a result of my work problems. I am thinking about getting into "rope access" which would be a new skill for work. I am an electrician, though not fully qualified. These two skills would compliment each other well. I am more overwhelmed by the feeling of despair and loneliness to get motivated to do these things.

Could you move out of London it seems insanely expensive maybe that would help you get your own place, you can rent a one bed flat in Liverpool for less than £400 a month.