chris1989 wrote:
I seem to will people become regretful if they didn't spend a portion of their lives having the odd parties and drinking, one night stands and so on. The thing is like to be social as much as the next person but I never found the club scene on a weekend interested me. I went to one once but spent the rest of the time outside because I didn't like the flashing lights. I also went on a pub crawl which became boring after a while because we just stood around a public park talking for ages. I really genuinely feel like I miss not having a larger social circle of people like the ones I see posted on social media. It leaves me with the impression that you are "missing out on life" or "wasting your life" by not having that social circle.
Reminds me at 25 living in the big city for the first time. I decided I should take advantage of big city life and go out and experience the gay nightlife and maybe meet someone. I put on my hottest clothes and drove to a nearby gay bar and parked.
It was noisy and crowded. I am talking about the parking lot. I sat in my car, remembering all the times I had been in a bar late at night before. The loud noise, the strangers everywhere, the high-priced drinks, the cigarette smoke, and feeling tired and exhausted late at night. Somehow I could not muster the enthusiasm to get out and go into the building. After about 30 minutes, I went back home and went to bed.
I never went back to another bar. I feel the same way about straight bars incidentally. Or parties in general. Any type of gathering, actually.
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