I seem to getting these thoughts and concerns that if I have a certain number of days spent indoors, people will think I'm becoming a hermit or something. I'm not a hermit and I do go out, I mean I go to work and if I have a short day of work or an early appointment for something, I'll probably go somewhere. But I do enjoy doing things at home and also the weather isn't always pleasant when it's cold in winter and early spring to go out.
I seem to find myself feeling like I "must" go out sometimes when I'm at my dad's for a few days otherwise he might get concerned that I'm spending too much time indoors whereas at home with mum and her partner they don't care what I do and I don't feel the need to go just to say I've done something by going out.
Even though I do enjoy my home hobbies I do feel like sometimes like everyone else who is out is "living" more because they are out at the pub or something socialising, going to a party, out at a nice museum or somewhere in the city, going abroad somewhere etc and think that I'm "not living" because I'm doing what I'm doing at home. It's makes me think is this no wonder I'm still single? I seem to struggle to want to prioritise things like dating because I'm focused more on my hobbies and stuff I do at home. I wallow in self pity because I'm not actively going on dating apps while at the same time carrying on with my hobbies despite being concerned I'm not meeting someone or other new people.
26 Mar 2025, 1:06 pm
