Can't form bonds?

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I recently realized that I don't seem to be able to form emotional attachments per se. Like I can enjoy being around someone, but if they disappear and I never see them again it doesn't really phase me. All of the friends I've ever had I just broke contact with and never bothered to pursue except when they were on hand. In fact, for the past several years, past the first meeting with a person, my interest in them decreases dramatically and continually. I literally can't become attached to people, even though I think I might benefit from some close associates.

(On top of everything I'm just a wee bit messed up so with increasing familiarity people seem less and less real and more and more like the characters in a story so interaction with them becomes an impossible bleeding of separate planes, but that's another story entirely...)

My very AS/HFA sibling is a loner too, and I was wondering if anyone else has problems like this. What do y'all make of it?

i can be like that for a lot of people

but then there are those that i may become unreasonably attached to someone...

well i havent had many good friends so its not hard for someone to be my bestest freind ever or to fall in love with someone that i may hardly know and brood over it for years after losing contact.

Do you form your attachments rapidly? Or is it more like people become built into your worldview-routine thing? Is it just a process of acclimating oneself to someone through nonstandard methods and chronology?

Perhaps I should add to my question. I know people with ASD are frequently very much loners, but while I seem to have the complete capacity for emotional attachment (like I am very much attached to my family and engage them in very normal patterns) this is not expressed at all with other people. Like I have a closed set of people I can be close to, so that new people are completely meaningless. I am more unable to form new attachments, despite the fact that I am clearly affectively capable of being emotionally entangled with another person.

At point A we have me and another person as strangers. At point B we have the two of us as being close. Both states are possible for my ego, and are realized in my life with some individual, but there is no longer any way to move from A to B.

My apathy towards others has reached profound levels recently; I can't stand to talk to people at school, and just want to be alone. The fact that familiarity causes a decrease in interest and a subjective dehumanization is just weird, and I'm thinking might point to a more severe emotional maladjustment...

Pardon my curiosity, but have you always been apathetic towards people? Or is it something recent?

I have a very hard time forming bonds, with most people. I have to know that a person is accepting of my differences, before I can form a bond, with that person.

I have not been apathetic towards people in that I completely ignored them (like I do now going on ~3 yrs), but the rest holds as long as I can remember.