I mainly like the aesthetics and trying to manipulate the way people treat me by manipulating the way I look. I mainly put effort into looking less vulnerable. One thing I do is make my eye brows arched, thin and slightly far apart. I find it gives me a sharp, alert and slightly intimidating look. I also do my makeup in a way that gives me a thinner face and do my eyeshadow in a way that my eyes look sharper and not overly sweet and friendly. I know people will mainly pay attention to my body language which can seem spacey and vulnerable. So I get a lot of people who think they can help me and think they know better than me. They’re right about me needing help, but what they don’t know is how useless 99% of the population is. So I’d rather not look like I need help. Help is patronizing and I only want to deal with it when it actually helps me.
02 Jan 2018, 12:25 am
