Last year in college, I met a girl. She seemed to be everything I could have ever wanted in a woman. She was warm, happy, thoughtful, polite, and all-around nice. She was a little passive, but she seemed great: great personality, smart, and attractive. She did let me know she had a couple of psychological issues, but I thought that was fine. I mean, no one's flawless.
One day, her personality seemed to have completely flipped. I said something she perceived as an insult (it wasn't meant that way); and, from then on, things changed. She soon became sarcastic, obstinate, and dismissive. I also became aware of her penchant for lying at about this time. She tended to tell a lot of white lies, even when the unadorned truth would have sufficed without upsetting anyone or causing her any hassle. She broke off the relationship pretty painfully: with an outrageous lie.
We later began communicating again, mainly over the Internet. I apologized for the mistakes I made. We started chatting again. However, her words turned out to be more fictions. She later revealed her sadism, perverse curiosity, and complete lack of caring. We ceased communication again; but she had been spreading gossip about me around campus, trying to destroy my good reputation.
She is a psychopath http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Antisocial_personality_disorder, and apparently she revels in that label; she has chosen evil as her identity. The last I saw of her was a sadistic smile. I'll even have to transfer to a different college because of her tremendous barbarism. I can only hope her words of poison won't stifle my opportunities in my future locale.
I have hope that she will develop some maturity--for her sake--but I'm not counting on it. I'm upset that the trauma she experienced in her childhood has deformed her and turned her into this. She has the capacity to be so much more than a psycho.
18 Dec 2004, 10:48 pm
