I talked to my sister today
I had a good chat with my 20 year old sister today, we talked about a lot indeed. It was the first time in many years my sister and I talked. Firstly she talked about her life and how all she can do is be a call center worker and is trying to convince her boyfriend to go back to University. She also sees herself as a wife and mother one day, she also talked about how neglectful our mother was, I went into details about that. I told her that I think my mother might have AS, but she does not think so.
Also my sister seems impressed by my intelligence and went on to say that if I graduated from my accounting program, I would get a good paying job in somewhere like accounts or financial planning.
I told her that I did not see myself having a relationship, getting married or having children and she said If I was concerned by that. I told her unless I think about what other people have, I'm not that concerned. I also told her I could never imagine myself as a father. I do have serious doubts of being in a relationship my self, as I have some asexual feelings. I would actually consider getting onto anti-libdo drugs myself or something that acted like casration but only had an temporary effect.
Anyway I also talked to my father saying I only learnt to speak in complete sentences when I was 6 or 7, you find out something new everyday.
Hi Newchum, I just listened to your radio interview, it was great. You've got the same kind of mutating Aussie/ random accent as I have.
My mum just told me that my diagnosis as a kid was dyslexia. Jeezus.
A- Why didn't they _ever_ tell me?
B- I'm not dyslexic in the least.
C- Stupid hippie parents!
I should have not told my sister, I did not have the same need to love and
be loved as her.
In reality I have the same needs as my NT sister alas, I'm very passionate
and emotional, but my unusual family life, plus certain aspects of autistic
personality have made it hard for me to express this desire to others.
Firstly I was sacred straight for a long time from ever considering having a
relationship and secondly I thought for a long time it was socially
inapporiate to express any romantic and sexual desire in girls, plus being
quiet and polite (as one of the social group noted when we met) giving
others the impression that I was gay (I'm straight by the way). These things
I really need to overcome (especially the latter).
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