NOTE: Wasn't sure if this should go here or the role playing fourm. I'm not asking for to role play however, so I figured here would be the best place.
I roleplay and I also write. You could say it is one of my obessions. A while back though, I got to thinking about role playing and the characters I play. While I may at times put a bit of myself into my characters, for the most part they are completely different people. Which is the whole purpose of role playing really. To play something unknown to you.
Still, I got to thinking... what if I where to put myself into a role play? With the only possible altercations being to my past so that it would tie in to the site. I would play myself though. How I looked and how I acted.
In a way thatis quite scary. I had to write down my personality. I would perhaps even use pictures of myself, or at least write down how I looked. Not how I wanted to be, but how I really am.... faults and all. In role play situations I would have to choose how I would really act.
Maybe it would even help me, sort of like a... therapy of sorts. Getting to go through situations I would not or couldnt normally do and then having to react in the way I think that I would. Perhaps even see how different kinds of people re-act to me.
So I did just that. I sat down and wrote myself as a character. Obviously Aspergers is a big part of me life and I tried to convey it below. I think I managed to do that at least somewhat. I could have gone on of course, but I had to condense it somehow. As I read through it, it seems more negative them positive, but I always seem to be more aware of my faults than my positives.
I did an appearance and history as well, although they aren't the best however.
So without furthur adue... here goes myself.
Personality
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Sarah is shy. She doesn’t speak up very much in a group and most of the time keeps to herself. She doesn’t do that well in social situations a lot of the time. People tend to make her nervous and uncomfortable and she always fears saying or doing the wrong thing. Party and crowds tend to be a no-no for her A few people and she is fine, but when it gets to be a lot of them she tends to ditch the scene.
When you get to know her however you would be surprised to find just how talkative she really is. It just takes a lot for her to really open to someone like that where she can be comfortable with herself around others
She doesn’t have the best self esteem really. She gets flustered easily and gives up when things get hard at times. A lot of what people say, she takes to heart and tends to over-react at times when a person is just trying to help. She tends to be very self conscious at times, thinking people are watching her even when they aren’t and dislikes being the center of attention or put on the spot.
She is the glass half empty type of person and often over analyzes everything. This is the kid that could take an hour trying to pick one kind of fork over another and then wonders even after if she made the right decision.
It used to be she wouldn’t really stick up for herself at all really. People would say or something mean to her and she would end up crying. Or when ordering her food would come out wrong and she would have a hard time even speaking up about that to get if fixed. She has gotten a little better in trying not to let the bullies affect her so much as well as telling them to just leave her alone. She is still not where she wants to be and a lot of just avoids conflict all together.
Her greatest tool really is her imagination. It helps her deal with her problems. She has a hard time confronting problems and often escapes to her mind. It often times take a lot to drag her back to the real world and you all but have to set her on fire to get her attention. In some of the more dull classes she cane be a million miles away in some fantasy world of hers where she can be the hero and save the day The gal likely has more books than the library. And most are either fantasy of sci-fi in nature.
She is not the most coordinated person in the world and would be the last person you would call graceful. She tends to stumble and fall down a lot, as well as knocking things over. Sports tends to be a bit daunting for her even though she does enjoy them.
She is intelligent. Sarah likes school and likes attending classes. She is compassionate and cares about what she is interested in. What she loves she loves and tends get very animated and excited about. She is respectful to her teachers and her peers most of the time. She is not one to gossip or tattle or make fun of another person. Really she is a friendly kid who does care about others and will be a friend for life if you want her to be.
Sarah is tomboy. She hates makeup, dresses and gossiping. She is more into dirt bikes, snakes and sports. She ain'’t afraid to hold a creepy crawler, bait a hook or get a little dirty, and would rather watch a baseball game than sleepover She is just as comfortable in jeans and a shirt than anything else.
Anyways... do you think I did a good job with myself? Obviously you don't know me and have no way of comparing it to me. I just mean would you think someone like the above would suffer from Aspergers? Does it seem to negative or to crap sounding? I tried to make myself into a developed character, or at least one that doesn't seem flat right off the bat.
Also, those of you that write and/or role play... have you ever tried to play yourself?
Or would you? I think it would be pretty interesting to see other folks give this a go.
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26 Aug 2008, 5:35 pm
