Uber Annoyed

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I am so pissed off. My paste screwed up got kicked from the chat. Can't really handle when computer do stuff againest me as well as I can with people. Not that im that great at handling it with people. Can't argue with a computer. I posted some post and got it edited by the Admin .

man im just pissed off.

My emotions suck

I have these emotions. Angery, Super Angery, Annoyed, Depressed, and nothing.

Most of the time I feel nothing.

I get super pissed off over stupid s**t and i can see its stupid but it doesn't make me any less pissed off. I get pissed off even when Im in the wrong and I can see im in the wrong. Man wtf is up with my emotions. I don't get pissed off by things that should pissed me off.

I wish i could control things more. Its kinda hard to live your life with emotions like this. Nothing, nothing, nothing nothing nothing nothing EVERY THING!!

I mean its too damn much. If it was more spread out. And if I had some way of controlling it.
When its with people its easier to handle (Luckly) but I want to be a techie so I can't afford to keep losing my temper with computers.

Man im such a dick. Im so friggin ret*d who am I kidding I can't be techie.

Just your average ugly socially rejected worthless aspie.

What keeps others going? Keeping up the illusion of self worth?

I like to think im indiviual but im not. Im just one in 6 billion people and countless more lives including animals and bugs etc. Im just one person whos not even properly functioning. Just a friggin ret*d judging every one else as reated to try and convince my self that its not me.

Man im still pissed off. I wish it was easy to stop being pissed off.

Just love that post. It's so eloquently stated. I don't have a wide range of emotions either; content, annoyed, frustrated, dull. That's about it. Sometimes I can get really angry, but not often; Ditto for really happy.

What helps me is that I know that God made me just who I am for a special purpose. He made me, set plans for me and has given me everything I need to succeed. I just have to accept that and do next thing. This gives me stability and the knowlege that ultimate success will happen regardless if I fail today. Most of life isn't the achievement, but the learning; i.e. failures.
I rebelled against this for years but now I've learned that resistance is futile.

When I'm angry, I accept that i'm angry and work with it.
If I'm depressed, ditto.

Writing is the greatest tool I've found to deal with negative emotions. It clears space in my mind that would otherwise be used up by frustration and rage. Knowing what I can change--what is under my control--and what I can't is a good place to start.

My advice--for what it's worth: Keep writing. And don't suppress what you feel--just accept it and sit with it without expressing it physically. I smashed a pair of headphones, a 2-way radio and a laptop computer screen before that lesson got through my thick skull. And that was just this past year.

Eek, wow, hang in there!

I used to feel like that a lot.

Come to think of it, I feel like that right now.

But it'll get better.