How does this make you feel?

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I wrote this poem recently - inspired by the words of a song. NT people who have read it say they did not realise I had so much anger inside me. That surprised me but I am beginning to understand what they are getting at.
So what do other Aspies think? I welcome opinion.



THE WORLD THAT PASSED ME BY

When the brain is saying no
But the heart is saying yes,
You don’t listen to your feelings
As you try to pass the test.
Trying to do what is expected,
Anxious to belong,
The words sound so familiar
But you may have got them wrong.
Life’s quality is weakened,
By the hours that you spend
Trying to build a million bridges
That you know you’ll never mend.
Is it vital to be happy,
Can your family take the strain,
On the edge of life’s existence
With your fingers in the flame.
As you take every chance you’re given
To fulfil your every dream,
Do you feel as though you’re living
In a world that’s passing by.

All the sex and all the drinking,
All the journeys round the world,
Every heart I have invaded,
Every precious little pearl.
When you travel all this distance
Will you ever feel you’re free,
Even when your destination
Isn’t where you thought you’d be.
On a journey through a lifetime,
On a jetstream of release,
I’m just happy to be breathing
Now my chances have increased
Of a day that’s filled with promise,
Of a day that’s filled with soul,
Where the boundaries are not broken
By a challenge or a goal.
It’s a spiritual journey,
It keeps me so alive,
I’m forever chasing shadows
In a world that’s passed me by.

Nice poem. And yes I did read it all the way through. Very emotional.

That's really beautiful. I think a lot of us around here feel like that, but don't have the talent to express it like you.

I had to read it twice to understand what it was all about.
I liked it, and I understood it very well rationally, and I can truly see how it can be read with great feeling, but I don't think I could muster it.

I'm usually not violently moved by poetry, and I think I've only once or twice have encountered a poem that has at all moved me.
Either I don't identify with the feelings in them, which is not strange considering, or I just think they're being Emo.
On that scale, this one was much better than most I've read, because this one I could at least identify a bit with.

Good job in other words. Keep it up.

Thank you for your comments. I don't write much, the last poem I wrote was about a year ago after a great day out with my (then) 3 year old son who is diagnosed with autism. I find it easier to express myself in writing - here in the forum or through poetry - rather than in conversation, probably because it gives me the thinking time I need to get the words out right.

I think it's a good poem. I don't understand the second part, but the first part I can But ... anger? I don't see any. Was there meant to be anger / bitterness?