Yeah that's kind of the feeling I get too. I would say 1 out of 20 people my age on myspace (great gage right) have any interesting books listed. It usually is just one or two if they have any at all. I think reading can really speed up the growth of an individual. Many people interpret grow as getting old. I see it as figuring out how to stay young. I've just had a lot of ideas in my head. When I converse with other people I find myself talking about theoretical dream, hopes for humanity and the little intuitive things under the surface a lot. I think if I wrote it out it would be helpful for me and maybe if I'm any good others could get something out of it. I'm not sure about how to go about it. Stream of consciousness style, kind of Finnegan's Wakesque? I definitely want to play with the whole epic/novel thing. Don't want to bite of more that I can chew though. Or confuse readers. I would have to be something that would keep someones attention through out with no let up, because that's the feeling of we live in, with 30 sec advertisements and all. Don't want it too long either. No filler. Just content. Real tight. I have few friends at the moment. They all gave up on me and my introspective pondering I think. It causes my lack of confidence. I have a hard time starting and finishing anything. If I do this it could either push me further down or boost me up. I can talk myself out of just about anything. Feed my ego. Tell me I should do it. Ask me questions. Something.