I'm lost:
I once had a friend....
A close friend, though he was from another land....
Today i fought with that friend and we're not longer close.....
He used to be nice....unlike most....
Now i have nothing but hate for him....
Hate and sorrow....losing a friend....
I have few friends....losing 1 is my worst fear....
Losing someone that once was near......
I'll get over it.....i deserve better...everyone does..
Especially if the friend is acting like mine was...
I cried when i lost him first....
That night, i felt so much worse....
Now i don't care...
For him, my feelings, i wouldn't share....
I've realised what i really missed....a real close friend....
One who's always willing to lend a hand....
Someone who won't hurt me....
He broke my heart you see......
I'm lost now....i'm not sure what to do....
Can't anyone help me......possibly you?
Help me please? I'm so confused and lost.....
My heart's turned from warm summer days.....to a cold winter frost....
I always wind up with my heart broke......
If i have a friend that's a guy....then i start to choke....
I just want a guy who cares......
Who'll be there for me, if i'm scared.....
A guy who won't break my heart or crush my dreams...
Who'll show his love with his heart, not money or shiny things......
A guy who'll help me if i'm confused or lost....
Who'll help me out, no matter what the cost....
When i'm lost i need help getting back on the path.....
I want someone who'll hold me, safe from my past.....
I know a guy who'll do that for a friend.....
Who'll always be there to lend a helpng hand....
He's sweet and kind...
Like an angel in my mind....
He's one of the guys that's there all the time....
Each day at some point, he's on my mind....
I know he'd help me....no matter the cost....
I wish he were here now....I'm just so very lost....
Friend:
How i miss how we talked each day for a while.
I miss being able to see your smile.
You left this town and your friends.
You left and went to another land.
You were a reason i was happy.
Now i'm just quiet and sometimes snappy.
I miss the days we spent together.
No matter the time or the weather.
I miss the way we would laugh and play.
The time we'd spend together every day.
You've left the town and i'm alone.
We haven't once talked on the phone.
I don't know your number, you don't call.
Since the day you left we haven't spoken at all.
When i think of the things i miss.
It's not the things, it's just this....
I miss the friend i had, who lived next door.
The one i could talk to when the rain started to pour.
Just because you've moved away.
Doesn't mean we can't talk sometime in the day.
I miss you more with each passing day.
I wonder why your family moved so far away.
I wonder how you are.
Where you've gone, how far.
Though i may never see you again.
I will always think of you as my friend.
Go:
I sit in my class and wait for the bell.
I'm controlling my anger, but not very well.
I think of nothing, i feel alone.
I don't want to talk, i want to go home.
I sit and i write with nothing to do.
I'm trying not to remember and start crying about you.
I'm alone now and sad.
Everyday i go to school i just look mad.
I can't think, i won't eat, i can't even sleep.
Right now people look at me as if i'm a freak.
The bell needs to ring, before i go crazy.
I make the things i hate around me look hazy.
I sit and think of something to write.
I want to go home, before i get in a fight.
I'm not happy this time of day.
I wish i were homeschooled again, ok!?
I don't like to be here, i want to go home.
I do things better when i'm alone.
These people are jerks and some are fags.
Most of them treat me like an old filthy rag.
If i don't talk back to you, then, this, you should know.
I don't like you so leave me alone....just go.
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~Sadie~
25 Feb 2007, 6:02 pm
