droppy:
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I don't identify with wither gender. I feel agender.
According to all the examinations counselors made me do I have the so-called "extreme male brain" and that is supposed to be the cause of my mental disorders. I am often told I have behaviours that look "boyish" or "not feminine" but I don't identify as male.
When I was a child I used to identify as a female. Then since the age of 11 I started to identify with neither gender. I think it's partly because in middle school I was bullied a lot by other girls and I was insulted and told I was a "genderless beast" so I think that I might have been partly influenced.
I am not very gendered. Gender (which is a social construct) does not define my personality or sexuality. I really don't bother much with gender as I find it restricting and annoying when it is applied upon myself, and I have never been accepted (and often have been bullied) by people when trying to assimilate to either gender. I mainly don't bother with it and am alone a lot because a lot of interactions go badly no matter what I do (some of the failure having to do with my other autism problems like social awkwardness, etc.). I only do gender (female gender role) things when they are mandatory for life and existence, and I only play it at the very minimum I can get away with. The genderyness of personality that I exhibit while being myself appears more neutral to masculine-ish but not strongly masculine. People sometimes think I am male. Usually I don't care if they do, except for times like when using bathrooms for example, people sometimes freak out. My sexuality is an altogether different thing that people are normally unaware of as I am very cautious and reclusive and keep to myself sexualitywise because (autistic issues, eccentricity etc) I don't fit any stereotypes and have mainly been misinterpreted insulted and disrespected and pushed around so much by people.
22 Jan 2014, 6:33 am
