i have hypergraphia, i can't process info but I wrote a book

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hello,

i am a 20 year old suffering from Hypergraphia/OCD/PTSD and have found out I am on the autism spectrum. My hypergraphia is an obsession with note taking, yet I have zero control over it. I basically write down everything I see or hear, and hear everything in constant narration. It took a long time for me to accept it but I did get a book deal from collaging a manuscript of my notes together. I feel very insane and gross, not like my peers and I hate saying that cause I don't like to get off on the fact of being different. If anything, I want to be like everyone else. Anyways: I avoid mostly all music movies TV shows/stimuli because it triggers me to write things down. I get obsessed with specific details and they will loop. It's been hard. The notes I will take are things like "lipstick on scarf", "opened wet door knob with towel", "go grab us a table" - I'm basically logging my life along with all of my thoughts. It feels insane. I also have a book, the characters are all different versions of me and it is set in a different era. It took a long time for me to accept I am autistic . I HAVE A VERY HARD TIME PROCESSING INFORMATION, so I barely read anything. I don't get this. It makes zero sense. i HAVE written things down on napkins, receipts, my body. Everything. It's very very overwhelming and intense, and it feels like A DIFFERENT PERSON that is not me. PHRASES trigger ENTIRE things, it MAKES LIFE SO EXHAUSTING. I AM NOT DOING THIS TO MYSELF, PLEASE DO NOT YELL AT ME.

Fascinating. You must have notebooks the size of Martyrs Mirror. What an interesting OCD to have. I think with me I think way too much. It often keeps me up for hours at night. I wish I could clear my mind sometimes and not think so much. Probably if I had hypergraphia like you I'd be writing down every single thought too. BTW, no one would make fun of you here on WP. We all have quirks and differences that sets us apart, but it's okay.

hello. i remember your other post. i hope you are doing a little better. i'd be very interested in reading a book from you.