Autistic females who did not get diagnosed in childhood

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^I used to cry a fair bit when I was younger. Actually, I still cry a fair bit.

Shy and lacking in confidence, but also looking through the answers I think some form of weird or different would have been another good option. Looks like a lot of us have posted that we were/are perceived that way.

I think the shy was more noticeable because I was shy with pretty much everyone, at least at first. And then for a few people who would act friendly, accepting, kind or compatible I would start to relax and be myself. And that is when the weird would come out. I think I was and still am too scared to act weird around people who don't know me well.

Lately I can't hardly talk about anything deep or meaningful especially at Meeting without starting to cry. It's easier to just stay quiet and withdrawn and have people think how shy I am than to try to open up and then choke up with tears I can't control.

Very shy and did not like to approach people. But once people approached me, I could become talkative until I scared them away by my inability to stop. I only ever wanted to talk about a few certain things, so people tried to avoid talking to me too much.

In middle school, I was bullied for a while. Apparently it was because I was 'special'. People thought that I was smart and dumb at the same time. They didn't know what to make of me. I didn't fit in.

Luckily, I found a best friend to take over and do the talking for me. I could just pretend I couldn't talk and she would know what to say. She told me what to do and helped keep me up to pace with everyone else. Everyone thought she was bossy, but I really needed someone to tell me what to do, because I couldn't figure it out on my own. So as I got older, I became shyer and shyer until I practically turned invisible. Now people just think I'm shy, not weird.

I don't cry as much in the last fifteen years since I began taking antidepressants.

I chose shy and lacking in confidence. I too was a bit of a crybaby, but from preschool through 1st grade. In first grade, I was so overwhelmed I cried every day just sitting at my desk. Somehow I was switched to a new "nicer" sweet teacher and I cried once a week. I was always shy and dreaded any speech in class or at lunch or on the playground. At 31, I remain painfully shy or mute in most situations. Learning about Aspergers is changing my persective in ways an anxiety/bipolar diagnosis could not (got that diagnosis when I was 21).