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gnatterfly
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24 Sep 2011, 6:04 pm

Hey there. I've always known I was a male since I was a toddler. I remember telling my sister that I was a boy in a girl's costume....when I was 4!! !! I dress like a dude, I am married to a dude (who's VERY supportive + an Aspie like me) and I take theatre make up and paint a sol patch under my lower lip. I'd pass if it weren't for my boobs. I'm scrawny....and then I have these huge boobs. I'm scared of hormone therapy and surgery, but It's all I've ever wanted! Any other Female to male gender queers ....? Or vice versa...? :P :P


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diniesaur
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24 Sep 2011, 6:10 pm

I'm not allowed to pursue my worries about my gender because right now I live with my mom and she says she'll kick me out if I do because she thinks I'm influenced by my ex who was a sociopath and she doesn't want me to remind my baby brother of my ex because it would be too hard on him.

I DO NOT identify as female, however. I may or may not be male, but I am definitely not female. I, too, share your pain about not being able to pass due to the hideous lumps that protrude from my chest. Sometimes, but very rarely, people think I'm male, and I get really happy when that happens. My breasts are size D, and it upsets me. I used to want to cut them off but now I know I can't because I want to have a kid and I know it would be best to breastfeed that kid. Oh well. At least they're almost numb.

Well, I hope my babbling has helped you in some way and shown you that you're not alone!



mb1984
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25 Sep 2011, 6:43 pm

I feel like this as well, I identify as a gay trans-male, currently still female bodied. I am also married to a guy, who is totally supportive of me. I bind my breasts depending on where I am going, so it makes passing easier. I'm hoping to start hormones soon, because I can't imagine living with my male identity hiding inside any longer...but I am also TERRIFIED of the social changes, and having to come out.


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gnatterfly
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30 Oct 2011, 9:14 am

Thank You so much for posting :) so good to know that I'm not alone.
Being a bi-sexual man in a bi-sexual woman's body is EXHAUSTING!! !


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16 Jul 2016, 10:12 am

I am also genderqueer, 15% male, 20% female 65% neither. I exercise pretty regularly and because I started in my teen years my chest is fairly small. I generally dress fairly gender neutral, and can present slightly more masculine in the summer when shorts are involved(I don't shave my legs). Only fail is that because I wear a cross body travalon bag I am constantly gendered as a female ...