Hi, I'm Emily and I'm from the Netherlands.
I have no friends. At all. I don't know anybody.
my story in a nutshell (just this one paragraph, you can skip it if you like):
I dropped out of college because of a burn-out. After that I've been trying all sorts of therapy, but got a real bad depression. Also developped many physical issues. Diagnosis at 30. Finally good therapist at 35. Then a hernia in my back happened, got surgery and 3 years later I still can't really move a lot. So now I'm 38, I've been spending all my time at home. I get help from a cleaning lady who's incredibly annoying and that's it.
I can't work, I only get out of the house for a walk or for groceries. I live in a flat with elderly people. Pretty quiet, but for loud televisions in the evening... But there's no one here to connect with. I talked a bit with some woman, but she recently died. People die here often
I am physically not able to take care of a pet and I don't really have hobbies I can talk about for hours. I don't know.
It's just that I don't know how to make friends and how to keep them. It's hard to find something you both like and then it seems you have to only talk about that one subject. Right?
I have never had friends. I have never dated. I have always been alone.
Is anybody else here always alone?? (Really, I don't want someone saying 'yeah, I'm married, have 4 kids but I feel alone.')