The thing that really confuses me about this loud, troubled druggie girl that left where I work, is the fact that she dislikes me but likes the quiet girl we used to work with, and yesterday the quiet girl told me herself that she's "socially awkward", and I know her dad and her uncle and apparently autism runs in their family. I'm not saying she's definitely on the spectrum and I didn't like to ask her in case she might not want people to know, but she's a lovely girl, like me; too lovely to be liked by a rather toxic girl like the loud one. But she does prefer the quiet girl over me, it's obvious on Facebook. They even went ice-skating together one Saturday, and met up another time to get their nails done or something. We are all in our 20s, so it's not like there's much age difference.
So I will just take it personally why the loud girl doesn't like me. It always happens. I only have mild level 1 "autism" (Asperger's) and my social skills have widely improved so I am very good at masking. I don't see what I do that makes some people prefer everyone else over me. I wish I knew.
Maybe when you die you find out all the answers to these life mysteries. I hope I do, then I can move on.
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31 Dec 2019, 3:06 pm
