My Psychiatrist was suddenly very direct and un-kearn's like. He looked at two of my features in disgust and began ranting as soon as I left the office. I don't know what his problem was, he suddenly accused me. He had a student there and like well I never ranted on paper before of people's bad attributes, just a little fearful of them taking notes down but it made me kinda..Idk.. skeptic.
I brushed my teeth with foam and made a splay outside a teacher's house who I thought was was one of three people. Honestly I don't know how someone could refer to my not wanting him to see how I brush my teeth and me having foam all over me and spewing it on the ground and like parking my car there to take a phone call could infer certain things if it wasn't them but like.. The way my psych accused me in the clinic. I don't know what judgement it came from but like.. who he has been told about is probably a different person and is judging me for something someone else did.
It worries me that this could have been my boyfriend now but I cannot worry about things like these. Then at a Walgreens where I picked up prescription some girl just stood over the counter.. not doing anything. I mean, I have nothing to hide nor care.. @_@ Just a weird set of misunderstandings.
I wonder if my boyfriend will get into his head to stop doing things for me. I kinda wanted him to be more relaxed with himself.. It seems like he is going out of his way to be someone I desire just for me and it kinda bothers me. I wish people would stop morphing him or setting such ideas upon him >_<. I wonder if he will stop loving me. I honestly assumed he did and stopped certain stuff. I'd be happy to start as strangers again. Although, I wish he could pursue the things he loves without people hindering so much.
22 Mar 2020, 1:11 pm
