sitko wrote:
I guess what I was really asking here, was of the things you fear, can you easily picture things like walking on the edge of building in your mind, and get sweaty palms (like I do)?
I'd only start to be wary let alone fear heights in real time, at the very physical moment, if there are real possibility of falling.
If I know to myself that I have real no safety net, if I'm physically incapable or simply not confident enough to go safely without serious possible consequences.
Except I'm not afraid to getting hurt, I'm more worried about people finding me in helpless states and be worried.
.. Yeah, I'm more worried about how people may worry about me than whatever they judge me in a more harsh manner.
While I'm not very clumsy, I'm not
that fit nor I'm 100% reliably attentive.
But if the floor is made of clear glass that is at least several times stronger than steel, and the view of said floor is thousand feet down...
I'd still dance and jump around it without any nagging behind my head.
Because I'm stepping into something very solid and not very drafty from below.
And if possible -- I'd willfully do skydiving, bungee jumping, wall or mountain climbing... Even crossing dangerous bridges and viewing cliffs.
At worst, I only get a quiet chatter behind my head to remind me to be less reckless --
because I'm somewhat naturally reckless -- to mind where I step, to tighten my grip a bit, to hold back a bit.
It's just instinct like notification that I can choose to play along or ignore.
Mostly because I don't wanna held back too much by people who cares too much.
But not true fear -- or at least, I know how to fight or take on fear from becoming a form of dread or helpless panic.
You know, the types who would take anxiety into a turn instead of dread it's excitement. I know how to be like that.
Because I know everyone's heads just wants their respective bodies to be safe.
I don't know.
I have a screwed sense of fear. I wonder sometimes if there are other aspies without any phobias.