That's good since it was a problem for you.
I suppose it's been several months for me since I self-medicated with such during a bad period, which isn't really the smartest thing when combined with some medications I'm on, but maybe I'm not as dumb as I sound (I know equivalent doses, length of QT prolongation at specific doses and so on). I don't get addicted, albeit I do get some beneficial therapeutic effects, hence, it can help. I'm not all that good mentally now to be honest, but I haven't used such, which I'm sorta indifferent to, simply because it's never been a problem for me.
My father also never abused such, so I don't have any bad connotations there with ethanol. He abused H. Which sorta led to some funny moments in my past where my mother greatly feared that I may have inherited it, so some surgeries and injuries were low on the Opiates for analgesia because I went without such to allay her fears. I didn't inherit it.
I've known some men that abused ethanol. To sleep and for self-medication, as they didn't want to get proper psychiatric help for what ailed them. They ended up needing the help and the ethanol just made it far harder for them in the end.