FranzOren wrote:
I do understand that, I have a lot of maladaptive OCD and traits of dysphoria about my mental health, I sometimes looked myself in the mirror and my face looks distorted sometimes.
I only have a diagnosis of Autism, Mild Intellectual Developmental Disorder, ADHD and Bipolar Disorder, but I sometimes get called very grandiose and abusive by my ex friends, as if I have a god complex and that makes my anxiety worse, because no matter how many times you guys tried to explain to me that I am not toxic enough to have Narcissistic Personality Disorder, I still believe that I might have it, based on what my ex friends told me, I made up my mind and I don't want to get confused again. How can I fix this? I need help!
I'm glad you called them your ex friends. My ex stepmother used to call me evil (the religious definition) she even got a Catholic priest round to bless the house and she had religious statues everywhere. I did experience psychosis at one pint where I believed I was Satan fir a while and that's who I saw in the mirror too.
I think the moral of this story is to move away from toxic influences in your life and that is what you seemed to have done so all power to you.
I think your next step is to start thinking of yourself in a more positive light. You have autism, adhd, ocd. Those are more than enough for anyone to have to deal with. Just focus on those things and try to not be influenced by what unqualified people are telling you.
_________________
We have existence