FranzOren wrote:
That makes sense.
Actually, it doesn't make sense. I can be pretty defiant, in some instances. I'm defiant of social conventions. I'm defiant of laws, if I disagree with them. I can be defiant of people, if I don't like how they operate. I'm defiant of public opinion, if I feel it propaganda and bs. I never wore a mask entire time during coronavirus. I am defiant of expected ways to do things, In my mind it's like "why? why should I do it that way, Why do YOU do it like this? why not another way." And I have a relative, who is willfully defiant, much more than me, and he got fired for disobeying his boss. And would rather party and do drugs.
But other times, I can be totally complacent and non-defiant. Co-operative, an just very polite and friendly.
I'm not pathological. I do not have ODD. But I'm also not a pushover. I can have very strong opinions on things, and sometimes I can be uncompromising in my attitude. Even when I know, I am just making enemies for myself, I will still sometimes defy others.
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