autisticelders wrote:
therapy helped me with negative thinking years ago, it had become a habit due to constant reprimands and angry feedback from others, and being told over and over there was no excuse for all my failures except that I was not trying hard enough and that it was all my fault. I learned to expect nothing but negativity from others, developed rejection sensitive dysphoria, was depressed, anxious, and suicidal for most of my life up til about age 30 I had to have so much explained to me (that others may have sorted on their own) and to learn healthier communication, that I had choices besides the responses my traumatic youth and young adulthood had programmed into me) and that the ways I had learned to deal with my problems were not healthy. Now 40 years later, I can see that therapy was the best thing in my life ever. I could learn new ways to 'do life' and find healthy outlook, more positive and balanced outlook, take more control over the way I responded to every demand from others, every situation I found myself in, etc. If you find yourself suffering and in emotional pain without understanding why this is happening, consider reaching out to get help from somebody who can become a teacher and coach and help you see unhealthy patterns you might not even aware of and learn how to make every day life better. Therapy saved my life and sanity. Don't be afraid to reach out! If I could do it, as messed up as I was, I am sure almost anybody can. I had no idea life could get better back then. What a relief!
I can relate to this, rejection is common place not just for autistics but everyone as society is designed in this way. People will tread on others to reach their top of the mountain. I am 52 and just beginning to pick myself up when I fail, it is sink or swim. It is worse for autistics.