I seem to think that is the root or one of the roots behind some of my worries especially when it comes to dating and meeting someone when I've been single for a long time. I seem to think my dad and maybe even my step mum nag me sometimes, they did it with me again which I expected them to even while we was on holiday in May in Naples, they even brought it up when we were in Berlin. It's like we are on holiday, why bring these things up right now? They spoke to me about getting more hours at work and even feel I should be at higher position by now because I've been there for 7 or 8 years. They tell me to get more working hours and yet at the same time they wonder why I haven't always had the time to go and see them.
I feel as the nagging is behind some of my comparison thoughts because they wanted me from the very beginning to get a job, drive and own a car and so on. I feel the reason behind why I drive now is because of my dad's persuasion to do so, which in the end paid off. That's partly because maybe when he was young he left school for an apprenticeship in carpentry since he was 16 or 17, started driving a car in his 20s, got his first house during that time and was in a relationship with my mum. I feel his mindset on how his children like me and my sister should do things in life is down to the life he has experienced so far.
05 Sep 2024, 11:48 am
