Been applying for jobs, but none of the jobs that I qualify for even sound that great. Last Thursday, scheduled a job interview as a delivery driver. Did not go. It was only five miles from my cage, but the job ends @ 9pm and the public transportation at that time extremely inconvenient.
Today, I had a job interview scheduled for Molly Maid as Estimator. Did not go. Takes two buses to get there. One of the buses only scheduled once every hour. Roundtrip. No litterbox access. And et cetera.
Thursday, I have an in person job interview @ the garbageman's. Paper Picker. It's only 3.2 miles away from my crib, but the bus only scheduled once an hour, the bus stop 0.6 miles from my jail, and the bus stop 1.4 miles away from work, and it's f*****g full time, and they have to wear uniforms. Besides, that job says "lift fifty pounds" also and work outside year round. Went to the library and printed out documents in preparation for the job interview. Job pays two bucks an hour more than I am currently earning. But, even if they do make the mistake of hiring my worthless corpse, "at will" employer. They could make my worthless corpse redundant at any time for any reason or no reason, as long as it is not an illegal reason. Plenty of companies have had the nerve to make my worthless corpse already.
Besides, based on the job description, that doesn't always provide a representative sample of the job itself. There is no way to know how rude or micromanaging the boss is, or how the customers and coworkers and day laborers are. So what the flying f**k ever s**t. And there always could be nasty surprises. Besides, sometimes, during the onboarding process, you do not even get a chance to meet the boss. Or if you do get a chance, the interaction brief and superficial.
October 11, scheduled a Zoom interview for a city job, Building Attendant. Lift fifty pounds. The job not even one mile away from my coccoon. It says that shifts are between ten hours and thirty minutes. Working for the government sounds like a much more stable job than Home Depot, but it still says "temporary" and "part time", and it did not say how many hours a week.
Applying for jobs, is like saying, I am riding in a bus and trying to get onto a better or faster bus. But some buses appear better and faster but they are worse and slower than they appear. Otherwise, I might fall onto the freeway and get run over, if I try to jump from one job (bus) to another job (bus). Also, @ any time, for any reason or no reason, the bus driver has a moral right to make me jump off the stupidass bus, s**t.
There's something wrong with everything, s**t.
As an autistic, it is really really f*****g hard for me to deal with change. Especially a change as big as changing jobs. Been working @ Home Depot four f*****g years.
26 Jul 2024, 10:46 pm
