Do you have meltdowns?How bad?

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I had meltdowns more often as a child, but they aren't that common now. I usually just dissociate and shutdown as an adult.

I do still have meltdowns sometimes and they're usually not that bad (just screaming/crying), though if I'm really, really overwhelmed and not allowed to calm down I've had super bad ones where I've given myself concussions, and one time I hurt my wrist. Fortunately even when that happens I don't break things or hurt other people.

Yes I have meltdowns but I don't know which category they'd fit into ^.

In public they're usually a bit restrained. I end up in fight / flight mode which normally looks more like flight to an untrained observer. Either that or I'm sitting on the ground / floor, curling in a ball, and crying / covering my ears.

At home they're more physical. I've thrown things although not at people - I make sure I'm alone before I trash my environment. The worst in recent memory involved a bottle of red wine, a bottle of salsa, and a stone floor.

The only things in my life that could have been construed as meltdowns were:

1. Tantrums before school age. Could have been normal first adolescence symptoms.
2. I once displayed a kind of screaming fit at school, but it was largely voluntary, a ploy to confuse a couple of bullies. As soon as they'd gone I grinned at my friend and said "I like a bit of a laugh," and then carried on as if nothing had happened.
3. I had an attack of "hysterics" once when I was 27. My breathing went out of control and I couldn't tell whether I was laughing or crying. As I was under a lot of stress at the time, it could be considered a normal reaction.

The sure-fire, never-fail method to get me to blow my stack is to corner me

It's not super common fortunately, but yes, it can happen in periods of disregulation and having my routines get off. When I'd feel them coming at work, I'd run to the bathroom and get in a stall so I would be alone. Thankfully for me, they tend to be relatively silent. I cry, for one thing, and then also I will shout in my mind, or mouth, or whisper things that are really frustrating me at the point. Along with some movements I make that I can't remember at this time.

I have meltdowns but they're just the crying type.

I'm on a mood relaxer to prevent them, I choose choice 3. I would not hurt anyone but it's emotional, yelling, swearing, and I've thrown things. The worst one ever was I believe December 12, 2012, I am fairly sure I blacked out it was so bad. Thank god I didn't fired .

While very rare now -- my last one was probably few years ago.
Ended up running across the streets without a regard; no more feeling my body, no more feeling the texture and vibration of every step I take, no more being mindful of my stuff possibly falling off, no more hearing incoming vehicles and dodge them as they come, no more words and communication.

It felt good; but it's dangerous.

And this was during a day job.

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Had a bad one today, It's been a while since I've had one this bad.

So this happened at Aldi, it was a mostly normal shopping trip, but they seemed to be out of a lot of stuff. There was this one lady in the store who was starting to piss me off. She kept getting in the way, everywhere I needed something there she was in the way. I could feel myself getting pissed off.

This women in my way, them out of stuff I needed, and at the end when I checked out sent me over the edge. I was paying cash so I couldn't use the self-scanners as they only take cards. Had 2 people in front of me, one got out pretty quick but this other guy moved slower than hell. Then came my turn, they asked me if I found everything ok, I told them they were out of things I needed.

Then the cashier asked me what it was and I was told they don't carry any of that stuff. Which they do and was gaslighted when I said they did.

If there is anything I hate is being gaslighted and told things are " in my head". Just the snooty attitude I got.

I made my way out to the car, I could feel I was about to lose my s---. Got in the car and tried to calm myself down. It didn't work, I started screaming at the top of my lungs(inside the car), swearing and saying some not so nice things. I was parked away so I don't think anyone saw or heard me.

Decided to come home, my throat hurts from the screaming still and feel tired now. *&^ing people ugh... .