I always identified as a-sexual and was not tolerated, still im treated like a stupid women. But my marriage destroyed me and made me believe I may be gay before a-sexual.... All I ever lived with were children consequences and religious conviction and the more this is drilled into me the more I rebel.
Seems those who do not wish to be preached to will never turn from their evil ways, my curse is a form of slavery trying to liberate and make world better at my own dire depression, if there is a God I doubt he did this, it's evil in man that has opressed me.
No religion on earth had ever really accepted women as having any spiritual purpose or contribution, they may receive all wish about my abilities, God has to at least acknowledge that I'm a person of ethics, values and despite being good mom, it is not what I wanted and the world will never accept me, always use and abuse my time
Maybe I should've got a a-sexual sex change, changed to be human of no sex. Then would I have being free, doubt it. I'm cursed.