Acknowledge the bad and the good

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I've been having a hard time for various reasons, primarily my chronic illness that keeps me tired all the time and unable to sleep or do normal things that might serve as distractions. But I have my wonderful boyfriend and my sister, and a few not-so-close friends. I have a roof over my head, hot and cold running water, a refrigerator full of food, and lots of programs to watch on streaming services. I might worry about the bad things that will happen to other people as a result of the elections, but my own life probably won't change very much, if at all. I am a fortunate person, even though I struggle.

You?

Same aside from I don't have a specific chronic illness but I got a bunch of psychological stuff, that sometimes still gives me physical symptoms, I could basically not eat for two days after the election. Had to like nurse myself back into being able to eat food because for two days I just was too nauseous to eat anything...I know it is because of stress and anxiety I could not eat

But yeah if I think about it I am probably ok now but it took a couple days, thank goodness I had my boyfriend there, cause idk I have to still function, but for a couple days I could not idk..so tempting to stay in bed and do nothing, but that is no way to behave. I still have to get up and face reality.

I have it bad from all sides: not only do I have to contend with what used to be called Asperger’s, I also have to contend with major depression and PTSD in addition to type 2 diabetes, chronic kidney disease stage 3b, and congestive heart failure, as well as hypertension. I’d rather be dead, dying in my sleep. If I tell that to a psychiatrist, they would have me on antipsychotics so fast it would make your head spin. I am also highly allergic to those medications. I don’t dare ask family for help, as I was told by my brothers to drop dead, some 15 years ago.

And before anyone asks, No, I did not vote. It’s bad enough I’m having flashbacks on what I went through with abusive parents, especially with a narcissistic father. If I had the money, I’d be moving to Scandanavia, as I feel in my soul the US of A will as we know it will be a sick, failed memory within 6 months.

@bee33
That is a cool profile picture.

I say this because I can relate
Much of the time I feel like some kind of indescribable creature that noone can relate, or respond to.

As for the election, ever hear the story of Robert Moses or the story of the evolutionary history between Homo-Sapiens and Neanderthals?