SocOfAutism wrote:
I graduated Summa Cum Laude four times. Take it from me: No one cares about your GPA. No one at all. Don't worry about it.
I also hear you about the depression. I was depressed for the first part of my life. I had a shocking experience and it just went away. I don't think that can be replicated, but it proved to me that depression is a biological thing that has to be managed. I haven't taken an antidepressant since the shocking event and I've just been fine. Like a new person. So it might be a permanent thing for you, but it might not. Just do your best to keep moving forward.
I suggest you aim for studies that are "mildly pleasant" but not your wildest dreams come true. You want to settle into a routine where your post-graduate life is preparing you for work. So look for interesting, but make sure you're having a good life balance.
Well the idea with this is that with a good enough gpa certain government agencies could take me on and then go to an even better school and have better job security. But one thing at a time. I am tired of having to fight over pay etc. . It almost seems better to work my butt off and compete the same amount for elite jobs, but I do have a few contingencies if those big ideas fall apart. I have been taking some hormones and seems to help a lot more. Not perfect , but has calmed me down.