I have a friend who doesn't understand why I can't just go over a lot. Social things drain me, not them. They don't seem like a good friend honestly. I told them my diagnoses and they tried to say I didn't have to feel a way around them. They think I'm nervous when I'm just stimming. I don't feel good about that. Also I don't feel good about the fact they commented on my weight and hygeine. Also they raised their voice at me because I got stressed out and ran to the bathroom in a panic and forgot to close the door when I left. I had a panic attack because they pressured me to smoke. I thought it would be ok. It wasn't.
My parents don't know. I guess I struggle to make friends and keep getting friends who don't care. It makes me sad. I want to find friends. I just need a little more understanding. None have understood very well. My medication causes weight gain, and I struggle with my hygiene which I'm very insecure about. Something's wrong with the sequence in my thoughts when it comes to it. I need written instructions for it.
Yesterday, 2:01 pm
