AuDHDNeurosparkly, Welcome to Wrong Planet.
You wrote, "I am ready to do some deep discovery into my autistic profile and understand more."
So perhaps the first point I can make is There are many other people like you. If you look very deeply, very very deeply around you, you may be able to find them. They are generally hidden off to one side. They normally don't talk a lot, but if you find them and listen, they are very good people. They can become your friends.
Around 50 percent of the population are introverts and the other 50 percent are extroverts. Extroverts recharge their bodies by joining a group of people. When they feel depressed they have the ability to get back to normal. They find other extroverts and talk and talk and talk and before lone, they are back to feeling good.
But introverts are very different. They need some alone time. They find a corner to be alone. They might read a book or play a video game or play music and slowly, very slowly their bodies are recharged and they are able to get back into the game.
But there is an interesting thing about introverts. They can find and make good lifetime friends. They can form good friends with other introverts. But they must be brave and look for them in out of the way places. They live all around you. But you must go forth and find them.