does anyone else have extremely vivid/realistic dreams that most people would consider nightmares?
my dreams are usually violent - someone trying to kill or torture me or someone i care about. I'm usually running for my life or trying to save people or I'm in a large scale war of some sort. when I was a child, up until I was like 5 or something, my dreams were only about my parents killing me in all sorts of different ways. as I got older, into my teens, they became more generalized like monsters trying to get me and my family, or my family trying to hurt me. I am either alone and fending for myself, or I'm in charge of others' safety.
my nightmares are usually demons or something supernatural. I don't practice religion and I'm agnostic about intangible things like gods or ghosts or zombies or other entities or aliens or whatever, things that are beliefs or debatable. but that's what my nightmares are about... or I'm the one hurting people.
all of my slumber adventures are very real, I never know I'm dreaming until I wake up. I tell my partner about them sometimes and he says "WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?!", they disturb him quite a bit. I've woken up screaming and scaring my partner and/or animals. I think I've had maybe 2 good dreams in my whole life. I never get any rest because my dreams are so intense and emotional, I end up trying to rest when I'm awake cause I'm so exhausted from my dreams.
I like horror because it makes me feel like my deranged thoughts don't isolate me, they're ok because other people have just as deranged thoughts as me. and no my dreams are not because I watch horror, I wasn't allowed to watch movies and I didn't have a TV until I was 12 and even then my mother was very strict and we didn't get even local channels, we only had a vcr and I was only allowed to watch ballets and Fraggle Rock. horror actually calms me.
I did die when I was 6 months old and sometimes I think a darkness touched me and I brought some of it back with me, but who knows. has anyone else died?
Anyway, I just woke up from a dream about being tormented by a serial killer and thought I'd post to see if any of you experience the same thing, maybe I'm not so weird?
thanks for reading.
13 Jan 2025, 9:34 am
