So I found out today that this friend happens to be a guy, for context, I am a bisexual trans man so I am completely fine with this and he respects my identity. His friend had persistently mentioned how he was being a baby by saying that he liked me. I, unfortunately, do not think I feel the same way and now feel greatly uncomfortable with the fact I gave him my school email so he could contact me. Before giving it to him I was talking with him and his friend and they got overly interested in my ways of contact and how I can text people. I should have read the signs but I am just now realizing this. I do not feel the same way from what I can tell and in my past relationships with crushes, I would become more concerned about their wellbeing than mine. I do not feel this towards this individual; it is making me question how I actually feel affection and know I like someone. I have been newly diagnosed for a month now and am on the high functioning spectrum.
I have had a bad experience with a fellow male ex-friend who got too touchy and interpreted me liking him as me generally just showing my affection by hugs and in terms of him overdoing it has made me uncomfortable around teenage boys my age especially people who take interest in me. I do feel they see something else and not the fact of how I am still not fully what I need to be for somebody. My last relationship ended about 6-7 months ago and I never really was able to communicate well despite trying to. I struggle with communication and since the past incident it has made me concerned I send off the wrong message around men and how I act. I do still dress feminine but had a shorter haircut recently and have been going by my preferred name since the start of the school year. This is the first year I am publicly out about me being trans and it does scare me with relationships and how they might see other traits they like. Whenever I wear any clothing that might be slightly revealing of my chest or stomach, or my better traits according to people it makes me uncomfortable and, makes me think people are staring at me and ogling. After the aforementioned incident with the friend who got too touchy, I don't truly trust being physically affectionate with anyone and fear that they will interpret the wrong signals.
I think that is what I could have done with the kid who has a crush on me but I am really bad with words and anything involved with romance makes me physically uncomfortable. I don't wanna be rude and assume but an email was sent to me from him saying that when his friend mentioned he liked me te wished he coulda said it smoother and that he was saying it himself. I got pretty nervous seeing this message and now don't know what to do.
I am sorry if this is long but the information included in my mind seemed important. If anyone have advice or any knowledge on whether this is normal for me to feel this way? If you are comfortable of course.
Yesterday, 9:29 pm
