I know how cliché this sounds, but continue your self-improvement journey. You might want to think about it a little less for a while.
But yeah, I empathize with being 98% single for your life or nothing at all, and if it lasts for decades of your adult life on end it feels like the biggest sexual and romantic repression and that God has even abandoned you (if you believe he exists).
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Current college student looking for a new job.
"Capitalism" or free-market != oppression