Family thinks I don't take my mental health seriously

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I'm supposed to tell them when I have hallucinations. I wasn't doing that and they got weird about it. I had a hallucination because I didn't sleep for 3 nights. I got lectured because I didn't tell them for a year. I have hallucinations a lot and i feel I dont need to tell people about every single one. However my family thinks I'm acting too chill about it. They think I'm not concerned enough and it concerns them. I mean as long as I know they're hallucinations doesn't that mean it's fine?

They don't worry me too much because I'm used to them. I'm always getting lectured about it though. That I'm not taking care of myself. In fact I had an episode that lasted 2 months and my family had no idea. What kept it hidden is that it took the form of a spiritual awakening and I believed I shouldn't talk about it. my family would be so mad because it was because I ditched my medication and because they still don't know. My mom thought the reason I peed on my bed a lot was because I was drinking but in reality I thought that's how I would summon my guardian angel. I couldn't explain it to her.

I can't explain certain things and my family thinks that means I don't care. It just means there's things I just can't comprehend sometimes. I have a lot of thoughts I can't put into words. Also I don't like having people be really concerned about me. It scares me. They say if I don't take my mental health more seriously I might have to try to find another living situation. I can't do that. I do take it seriously but I just can't explain why I can't explain.

It's just uncomfortable for me to talk about hallucinations. I don't want to think about them or talk too much about them. I wish they'd understand. I have it under control.

Mental health difficulties come in many forms, it seems, and, looking back, I've had my share, the most noticeable was a tendency to hoard "bargains", as a result of which my flat now resembles a rubbish dump.

Did I take it seriously at the time? How, when I wasn't even aware it existed? That's a pretty standard feature of most forms of this issue.