Hi Nightwing,
I have read all of this thread. We are aligned politically, and I can relate. I think if you truly want to emigrate, you will need to make a long term plan to do so, and this would entail compromising in ways you may not be willing to compromise in. It will take time and money. Nothing is impossible, but you would need to save up and break down this plan into manageable steps. The biggest compromise is that you will probably have to accept moving to a blue state, or to a country that doesn't feel a whole lot better than the US. Because you're right- you don't have a path to immediately move to a desirable country. Even if you saved up all the money you needed to go there and come back, there's no guarantee of finding a job. You could save, go to EU and try to get a job and see how far you get, with a return flight already scheduled and paid for, but you might just end up back here. You could save up to move to somewhere like Mexico, which would be a lot more accessible, but would you want to?
Honestly, your posts are giving depression, and it is depressing what's happening in this country, but for the moment, I have come to the conclusion that it is at least for now, time to protest and resist, rather than time to run. I have been making calls every week, which, considering how fun phone calls are, means that many others who don't normally make phone calls are also doing so. I would be out protesting in person if I wasn't disabled, but many others are doing so. Think about how many people there are in this country who are not white, not straight, not cis, disabled, not christian, reliant on social security and medicaid, veterans... There are more of us than there are of them. How far will this go? At what point will we see a showdown between the powers that be? I don't know, but we haven't see the last guttural dying breath of the united states just yet.
There's more than just political depression in your posts, there's the regular kind too. You don't have a support network, you're estranged from your family, your friends don't have time for you, and you are over it. I can relate to that, but you are undoubtedly awesome too. You speak Arabic, you have your head on straight, you are empathetic, you cared enough to get a degree in special education. You need people in your life who help ease the sting of the inherent suffering of existence, and you deserve to have support. I have found something akin to this with therapy and online meet ups, and I am lucky to have a couple family members I am close to.
I hope this storm passes, and if not, I hope that you can find some comfort in it. 