Aspie girls, have any of you been sexually abused? (NSFW)

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I'm a survivor myself, molested by a male babysitter when I was between the ages of 8-11. I've spent years in therapy dealing with it, as I think not dealing with it was what allowed me to get into an abusive marriage. I managed to get out of that situation before the abuse became physical, but it was verbal and emotional abuse which is often worse.

I actually just posted this in the GAD thread. I'm female-to-male trans, fyi.

I'm not sure if this counts but when I was 18 (almost 21 now), my on and off boyfriend/best friend forced me to get naked and show him my intimate parts (breasts, vagina & buttocks) when I really didn't want to. While forcing me to do it, he wasn't threatening me or being aggressive but he was being rather persistent and pushy about it (he kept saying please over and over again and that he wouldn't hurt me. The pressure eventually made me snap and do it. I felt like I had no choice). While exposing myself to him, I was shaking, covering my face and trembling. I felt like a dirty slut and ashamed of myself. After that, we had to kiss and he made me sit on his lap. Since I was too nervous to say no to kissing, I kissed him anyway even though I never really wanted to. He got an erection. Then, he forced me to touch his clothed penis. Of course I didn't wanna do it because I was a Christian (still am) and it felt wrong and dirty to do sexual activity before marriage. He kept begging and begging until I touched his penis. Since I didn't wanna grab it, I touched it with one finger. He told me to press on it harder. This felt so dirty and wrong. That night, I cried myself to sleep over feeling like such a dirty slut. I've never felt so violated in my entire life. Before this happened, he would always say perverted things to me via text and obsess over seeing me naked. He even exposed himself to me without consent and I felt like crying. We're no longer together and I blocked him 2 years ago. Because of this, I'm afraid of having relationships and being in a room alone with a guy.

I had a similar situation. When I was 13 my first serious boyfriend of 3 years started revealing himself to me. I was horrified and cried. It progressively got worse as he wanted me to suck him and eventually have sex with him. I refused to have sex with him and he punched a wall. Another time he threw a chair at me. He threatened my life and my family and I have blocked him from my life. Despite that, he found me a few years ago and threatened my friend's underage son who has a severe physical and mental disability. Men and boys who feel like they are entitled to sex make me sick. No teen or adult should EVER have to go through that.

Around that time, I also was pushed against a wall in the back of a public place, felt up, and told that if I moved or told anyone I would regret it. An ex of mine saw the whole thing and froze in fear. I couldn't tell my parents because they would never let me out without them again.

The most significant sexual abuse I've ever encountered was my grandmother. She used to feel me up and down, watch me dress and undressing, lift up my blouse and skirts, and made dirty looks (looking me up and down smiling creepily) while I was in the back of the car. I would cry and scream and my parents told me to stop overreacting to her looks, that she was "picking on me". My dad said when she would do dirty things to me that it was normal and that it was her way of joking... that she did it to get under my skin because she knew I was angry with her for that and she thought it was funny to make me mad. Even when I was hospitalized as a teen, no one believed me. It wasn't until I was an adult that my mom looked back at my old journal, her own memories of me, and pictures of me. She saw that I was very afraid of my grandmother and that I suddenly changed the way I dressed to cover my body. I stopped wearing skirts completely and wore baggy long clothes. It's still frustrating that my dad never realized that what happened to him as a child AND adult and what happened to me was NOT normal, NOT a joke, and NOT okay.

I couldn't even being to understand the pain you all went though thankfully I wasn't abused the closest was the first time I had sex as I was trying to fit in and I had drank so I was under the influence.

I won't even consider that the same as what you all survived. Thankfully not every man is like that when I was friends with my partner his first example of his you could say black and white view on life was shown to me when his friend and work colleague bragged that he bedded a 15 year old in the back of his car and asked him to keep it quiet. This friend he had known since he was 8 so they went back a long time they were both 22 at this time and I remember him right away telling me he acted like he was non plussed and as soon as lunch came he went to the police told his friends wife and then in court acted as a witness.

I remember him telling me that he got quite a few years and he did visit his friend once to tell him that if he ever set foot in the village he would personally hang him from anything tall. He said the last thing he did was destroy all reference to his friendship with him and find the victim and apologise to the victim and the family even though he never did anything but he said his friendship felt he was just as responsible

iv been sexually abused and physically abused

i wasnt planning on having children but this nasty man raped me and got me pregnant when i was in my 30s

i went on the pill after that

I don't know if this counts as abuse, but I dated someone over a year ago who was very intent on taking the relationship to a very physical level, and coerced me into doing things I was uncomfortable with. (Using the "blue balls" excuse...)

My brother's friend inappropriately touched me when i was about 7. I've had other bad and similar incidents. I hate interacting with males now bc I assume they've the same predatory nature. Would like to avoid at all costs.