DevilKisses wrote:
I don't think it's about misogyny. I know some creepy and misogynistic men find my face shape attractive. I really don't want to be attractive to those men. I'd rather have an edgy and more intimidating face. It fits more with the way I want to interact with the world and dress.
OMG I understand what you mean. So many times I've wished I could look different so they would leave me alone. But then again why should I feel like I have to look a certain way to not be harassed? It should be okay for me to just look the way I do naturally and not worry about who might find it attractive.
I have baby fat on my face too. People assume I am younger than I am and tend to patronize me a lot. My face looks different from different angles though. From one angle my face will look very soft and feminine and from another it will look harder and more masculine. It's almost like a constant flicker of different images. At the same time my expression can be sort of blank sometimes and being pale my features can wash out. I think somehow it lends itself to people just seeing what they want to see in me. One person might think I am sweet and innocent and another might think I'm mean. I never really know what people think unless they tell me. But I've heard so many different things from different people I believe they just see what they want to see.
Please read Autobiography of a Face by Lucy Grealy. I think you would like it.