It's probably the reason why I won't look for a job - I can't stand the idea of having to deal with so many people to get to the 20% who are on my wavelength. If I knew that I'd have to do that when I was younger it'd be fine and I would have been able to get used to it but I'm getting on a bit and I just feel like it would be incredibly stressfull and draining.
Funnily enough if I went out for a walk or to get the messages in a bad mood or with a headache or just being grumpy generally I would resonate and relate to most of the people I would encounter. The other day I woke up in a good mood and I felt like James Brown - I go down to the shops and the difference between myself and others was stark. I could feel the tired vibes of others and I felt like I had to change my mood to fit in.
Not much I can do about it now really. Add to that I'm getting withdrawal symptoms from quitting my addiction. To explain it further I'd have to talk about my upbringing (which I'll do in my next post)
13 Aug 2023, 12:07 pm
