how do you feel about autism and being autistic

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I was born this way, it is an important part of who I am. It is nothing to be proud of or ashamed of. It is how I dealt with it that makes me proud and ashamed.

I'm mostly indifferent about it. The main thing that usually upsets me is how people react to me, which often isn't anything I can control. I also hate my sensory issues, but it doesn't make me hate being autistic or anything like that.

I accept myself as i am, but being isolated without anyone you can relate to hurts sometimes

Autism is what I can and cannot do. I would have to make do.
Autistic is what I do with it. And for now, I'm alone in this.

Overall, it's a blessing and a curse.
And I'd be making changes for the better.
Always work in progress.

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Here's a video of me explaining how do I feel being autistic.

I find it difficult.

There are so many things that seem difficult for me that the people around me have no problem with. There's alot.I don't understand and I know that as an adult.I'm expected to understand many things.

My niece.told me she was going to be an adult when she grew up not a kid like me.

I feel very much like a child wearing adults clothing sometimes. I wish life came with a handbook maybe then it would be easier to understand.

That said there are good things about being autistic too. There are many interesting people who share similar.interests.

Yes I think that's why people get impatient with me. I'm 'supposed' to have got over my quirkiness by now and 'grown up'. But I'm still struggling so people get annoyed.

I've literally just learned of my Autism this month. Gotta start somewhere. And it was all through studying and researching about it for the sake of my child (that was 1 of the reasons), who is officially diagnosed Autistic.

It was an exhilarating revelation for me, but I think that has a lot to do with the fact that I learned *when* I did (I may not have taken it so well at an earlier age, knowing myself).

I'm just grateful to God for showing me all the connections throughout my life that lit up clear evidence, from my birth till this point, of how it has *always* been me. And I see that it changes nothing that's already in my life, *because* it's always been there, so I don't really feel the need for any major changes.

It's funny, I've always got on brilliantly with kids, even teenagers. I don't know why, maybe it's because I'm a bit like them and they appreciate it? I worked with kids for 10 years, I loved that sort of work.

It sometimes feels like I'm playing the game of life on a difficulty setting different from everyone else. I have a different thought process, I have a more creative mind, and at the end of the day I'm literally, as the kids say, built different, and that's fine. Is it difficult at times, especially to get people to understand me? Abso-effing-lutely. Is it rough to deal with the general public on a regular basis? You know it. It's got its moments, but when it has its good moments, those moments last a lifetime...and unfortunately the inverse can be said as well. When it has its bad moments, those can also last a lifetime (though I am trying to work on that, shoutout therapy).

To sum it all up, living with my autism can be both a blessing and a curse, and I'm making the best of both sides.