"you're always gonna be different to everyone else"

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Well I was diagnosed with it after I was diagnosed with schiztotypal pd and it was like a dispute diagnosis but I don't even know if its official or just an opinion sonim always thinking that maybe the first diagnosis was correct

In any case I'm always gonna have it

My shrinks gonna help me with this. Just spoke to him now

He said that he's had loads of people tested for it in his career and he's always been spot on with it but he never would have thought it with me...it's no wonder I'm confused

I told him that I'm a mess ATM and he's gonna help me because there's also the dissociative disorder and the PTSD so he thinks this is why the Asperger's is so hard for me to recognise because of all the other things that are going on

I was always told this, but in a way that expressed it wasn't a bad thing either.

I hope I'm not sounding too repetitive! I always knew I was regarded as weird by fellow students at school and even after school. I never really knew why I could never really make friends like everyone else did. I went through my whole life like this, by myself. I remember thinking when I was young that I might be autistic but I quickly dismissed it. Largely because I was doing well in other areas. I have a degree and post graduate diploma and held down a reasonable job for 34 years. I thought autism was a disability and I did not appear to be disabled!

I was diagnosed with autism just this year. It's been a real revelation! Suddenly, my life is just starting to make sense! I have dealt with anxiety and depression my whole life and saw a psychologist for several years who did not diagnose me. It was only when I changed psychologist that I was tested.

I've been learning to live with myself since I was a teenager. I think I will always be different but at least now, I know why!

"Allism"
"They assume that the independent actions, facial expressions, voice inflections, and factual statements of others are intended to be hostile, argumentative, or condescending. May suffer from delusions of persecution and believe that others are judging them or attacking them; difficulty understanding the motives of others; believes the thoughts and opinions of people are related to his/her own participation and existence in the world."

the irony is that most of us (AS or NT) would assume we are all like this, finally identified what unites us.

I think Allistics:
A. Are herd animals
B. Have a high tolerance for imprecision and inaccuracy


For instance:

They also have special interests, but their special interests are only OK if a lot of people in the herd share the interest. (What possible sense is there in being very, very interested in the private lives of celebrities?! But that's on the "approved" list.)

They assume other people understand what they are thinking. (Though it probably doesn't often occur to them to check what the other person thought they were thinking...why wouldn't they know? By default and without verification they assume other people know what they meant.)

I suspect a lot of extroverts are so used to choosing whatever is socially safe for an interest that they don't even realize they are doing it. It's like an automatic program they have to not invest in an interest that could lead to social ostracization.