Why so many ASD and ASD like people portrait it as failure?

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Sidenote, I actually do not see going on disability as a failure, or failing.

I see it as a means to an end. I rather think I can be more successful and happy in life and can pursue the stuff I actually want to achieve.

Be careful with definitions and diagnoses here; there are certainly a host of dificulties now described as ASD, but to me, being Autistic is like winning life's lottery! It hasn't been easy, when having to deal with those stange NTs, but otherwise there is no one else I'd rather be. I'm not alone in this; those few who I've encountered on the net, that I considered kindred spirits, and who are thus probably Autistic by the same definition (the historic one; it's an aspect of personality) were unanimous in this espect.

Doesn't help that ASD involves difficulties we don't know how to explain until we learn about our own condition, and sometimes not even then. Before I understood what sensory processing disorder was (it's part of the diagnostic criteria for ASD), I had no way to explain that sometimes I would feel sick for no apparent reason.

Now granted, people still don't believe me even when I have the words to explain.

Autism is a cluster of traits, some good, some bad, some neutral. I can see some having a better mixed hodgepodge than others.

For me, I also get hyperfixations so intense that they send me into hypomania, and possibly full on mania. Like, legit. The kind of thing you see in bipolar disorder. (I'm not bipolar, for sure. You can have mania without being bipolar. Bipolar is a pattern, and many things can trigger mania in a human. It's an excess of dopamine.)

Like I'll run on next to no sleep for weeks on end, I'll have so much giddy, hyper energy, I'll talk fast, I'll be extra spacey, I'll do things like go on walks for hours, etc. Also be more careless and spend my money like mad.

I've also had hyperfixations become addictions with withdrawals and everything.

While there are many possible mistakes to be made, I'll warn folk here not to make the same mistake I made shortly after I was diagnosed. I thought I'd done reasonably well for myself.

Then I thought "I wonder if there are any famous Autistic people..."
I made the mistake of checking.

My ego was crushed. They appeared to me to be so much better than me.

Eventually I remembered it was a spectrum. We're all different. Even famous Autistics probably had their struggles with it.

P.S. I've never gone weeks without sleep...but...

I worked for a government contractor. We were the lead contractor on a bid. I was our contact for one aspect of the bid. Feel sorry for my contacts from the other companies. The government asked a question in our purview. I now know my response can be attributed to Autism...

I went in at my normal time on Tuesday morning. Got the question. Began working on a response with the contacts from the other companies. When I was still there when my manager returned from lunch on Thursday he threw me out.

Feel especially sorry for those contacts from the other companies. They tried stay up with me. Later I did apologize to them.